Haw Par Villa (a hell like place)

Hey hey!! sorry that i didn't post like alot these days cause got no inspiration...hahaha=)
Anw, i jus wanna tell you all about my experience at Haw Par Villa!
Have you ever been there?
It is at bouna vista area!

It all started off when i met leng shan at bras plaza and we wanted to go tecman..
Then she said that she wanted to bring me to a very cool place..
A hell like place!
So we went there lor...
Haw Par villa is a place built by buddists and for buddists...
When i first entered, what i saw was like a place full of statues...
Like budda, sun wu kong, animals and several faces!
Everywhere is just statues and figurines of the people in the past and how it links to the different chinese cheng yu being taught today..
It is like super warm and we had to walk..haha=)
i don't really like walking alot so....
Anw, i started to ask leng shan eh! lets go to the hell like place like now!
She told me, no...the best for the last!

After all the walking, we went to eat maggi mee at some restaurant over there...
each one cost 3 dollars! of course got give egg and stuff la..
After that, we went to the hell like place..
admission fee is 1 dollar for adult..
before entering some grey concrete enclosed area, what i saw was human faces on the stone...and they are crying blood!
The first thing that i saw in the concrete area was the judge...it makes me think of satan..(but in a chinese form i guess)
as i walk inner, there are like several different sections..the whole place is called the "10 courts of hell"
it gives descriptions of the sin that one commit and what kind of punishment one will endure in hell..
Eg, if you are unfilial or cause trouble to your parents or speak vulgarities, you will get smashed by a stone or get your legs and hands and head chopped off..
Stuff like that..
They use figurines of human beings to illustrate!
Blood everywhere, people in bloody lake, people's tongue gets pulled out, people gets smashed under a large stone like a grinder, people burnt, people pierced..etc..
So many so many!
It really freaks me out..
Imagine, when one go to hell, there is no way to escape!
It is too late...and you will have to endure these kind of torture over and over again!
Worst thing is you cannot die! but it lasts for eternity!

Sometimes i just cannot understand why people on earth just continues to sin, continues to enjoy their lives when time of earth is just so short as compared to eternity!
There is a heaven and hell! and no one can run away from it!
Even budda, such a wise man, says in one the the four nobel truths that the purpose of life is to find a way out of the wheel of suffering which no one can escape from...and the one way is Jesus!
Jesus provided the way cause he is the only one that did not sin even on earth or in Hell for three days!
He is the only one that can escape from suffering that all other human beings suffer due to sin!

Before it is too late, pls, accept Jesus christ into your life today! (if you don't know how, leave a comment k?)

Oh! you all should go and read the post on "Pls believe me" on http://www.chowzy.blogspot.com/...

I won't be writing any post from the 1st to the 4th of jan! cause i going genting with leng shan!! yeah!!!

God loves you always!

Children

Today, on the bus, i thought about something...

Because i saw a little girl and she is really adorable!!
i started to imagine how i will carry the girl in my arms, how i will love her and how i really really want her to love me back...
cause she is so so cute!
But dunno why, i started to link to God...
God also loves us so much and find each and everyone super cute and special!
And i am sure he also wants people to love him back!

There was another thought...
I found out the reason why God loves children..
Children are very innocent and have child-like faith....
they do not really think much and everything around them is just very simple!
The reason why as we grow older, it is not easy to get saved...
As we grow older it will be more and more difficult to accept the simplicity of things and we always think that everything is very complicated...regarding both the world and God...
Children are the ones that accept and believe things easily,
they are the ones that think that the world is like a playground and they are happy and contented with what they have...
they are the ones that are always happy and joyful, full of energy!
they are the ones that show others what they are actually feeling on the inside...and not to bottle it all up!
they don't care about pride, face or anything else that older people cared about...
they are just happy, living in their small little world...
thats why i do not want to grow up at times...

God loves little children...
Cause they are able to accept the simplicity of everything...
Just like if we were to tell them saying, hey!
Do you know that Jesus loves you alot and died on the cross for your sins?
Are you willing to accept him into your life?
They will not bother to search for answers...they just accept and believe!
Thats how amazing children are!
And sometimes, i really do admire them=)

God loves you!

Christmas

Every year we recieve presents, go to church and celebrate christmas as just any other festive season...
This is the second year that i celebrated christmas with Jesus in my heart..
Every year i recieve presents with high expectations but when i unwrap the presents, it will always be below my expectations and i will always be kinda sad...but of course still must accept right..

Anyways..
This year it is kinda different cause i understood one point..


The point is that i feel that christmas presents are not important at all!
If people buy for you, it just shows that they care and love you..
You may buy a super expensive gift and that person may give you something real cheap, it doesn't really matter..cause your gift made someone smile!
i feel that presents are suppose to make the reciever feel happy...if you did it, you succeed!
And christmas is not just about giving gifts and recieving them,
It is about the fact that God came down to earth as a human being!


You may say...haiz..i hear this story 10000000...times!

But i still wanna emphasize on the point that a God that is willing to step down from the throne and his comfort zone to go through all the trouble, pain and sufferings just to save us from going to hell because of our sins, that God, is a good and amazing God!


There is a song called above all,
One of the sentence is...
"you lived to die, rejected and alone, like a rose, trampled on the ground, you took the fall, and thought of me, above all..."


Before i came to really know christ, i used to wonder..
why must God come down just to save us...
here is a story that i heard and i wanna tell you..


There is this son of a man...
The man is a judge...
The son committed a huge crime and was being placed in court!
This man have to follow the law and give his son the punishment that he deserve!
So he has to painfully judge his son...
After judging, because he loves his son so so much, he took down his wig, step down from his judge seat and took the punishment that his son has to endure upon himself...

It is the same with God...
God loves us so so much that he is willing to take our place..
To be born as a human being called Jesus to take upon our punishment..
"For the wages of sin is death"
He loves you so so much!
Are you willing to love him back?

God loves you!

Inspirational

I found this really very inspiring!

Pastor lip yong said that..
God's plan and purpose for us christians is really to evangilise!

Okay, ask you something..
What is the one thing that us christians cannot do in heaven but on earth?
Many may answer..sin!
But it is actually evangilise!
Do you realise that you cannot evangilise to anyone when you go up to heaven?
You can have the best worship, you can pray and do all the stuff in heaven..and i am sure that it will be so much more perfect as compared to earth!
So it does not matter whether you have the gift to evangilise annot, you still have to do it cause it is God's purpose for us on this earth...

I was wondering today..
Have you ever wondered like how life will be like in your friend's life if you don't exist...
Because i was sitting on the bus like on the way to the choir performance at orchard...
The people behind the bus are like making alot of noice and stuff...
I started to wonder, whether is it very important for me to be there...whether will it make a noice difference when i am in like their convo..
I started to realise that it doesn't matter whether i am there annot...they are having so much fun talking..
Then, i feel that at some point of time i am not very important in the world...whether i exist annot, the world will still go on and rotate...

I started to appreciate God more, cause he really loves us as who we are and not according to what we can achieve and what we can do...
He loves us just because we are here...
And i started to realise that he is the only one that loves us even if we no longer seem to be important in this world...
He still treats us like princes and princesses!
This is the beauty of our God...

I love God!!

A story

They rhema conference that my church organised was real good so far! especially the night time rally...
My friends kai yuan and xin ying cannot make it for today's one...and today's message was very touching!
14 people got saved!! praise the lord!
But, i can't help feeling sad...cause my none of the friends that i wanna save, are saved...=(
anw, i just wanna tell you this story that pastor lip yong talked about today!

there was this boy...
He was holding a cage with three birds...
A man walked over and said, "what cute birds you have!"
The boy said, "yah! i love them alot! i am going to pluck out their feathers one by one and poke them..."
the man said, "huh? then what are you going to do to them after that?"
the boy said, "oh! after that, i am going to kill them and feed it to my cat!"
the man felt pity for the bird and his heart soften...
he said, "how much for these birds?"
the boy said, "ai ya! you won't want these birds one la...there are so many in the park! you can go catch some for yourselves!"
the man said," no, how much are these birds?"
the boy thought to himself, "wah, this is a good opportunity to earn some profits!"
the boy said, "er, 10 dollars for these three birds!"
the man took out his wallet and passed him the 10 dollars...
the man brought the cage to the park, open the doors, tap the cage and set them free...

There is Satan and God...
Satan holds a cage and inside this cage were people...
God asks satan," hey! what are you going to do with these?"
Santan says," oh! i am going to let them fight amongst themselves, hate each other, torture them..oh..it is so fun! i am going to give them alcohol, cigerattes, drugs to make them feel terrible and helpless..i am going to have so much fun with them!"
God says," then what are you going to do after that?"
Santan said," oh! after that, i am going to kill them and throw them into fire!"
God felt really heartbroken for the people....
He said,"how much for these people?"
Satan said," ai ya! you wouldn't want them one...they will betray you, hit you, insult you and not appreciate what you are going to do for them!"
God said," no, how much?"
Satan thought, 'wah, this is a good opportunity to get back at God!'
Satan said," ok! if you want them, you will have to pay using your blood!"
God said, "ok, deal"

I think this story is really touching because through all these rhema stuff, i realise how great God is...
He created so many solar systems and ours is only one of them...he created the whole universe!
He created all the animals, insects, plants, sea and so many so many...
He created the earth which is the only planet able to support life..
I think we are very previllaged to be his people..
Cause it is like He is God! and He is perfect and so powerful!
He don't even need us to do what he wants to do!
We are useless to him...and uncomparable..cause we are so imperfect...we sin...
Sometimes, we even forgot about him and not believe in him...
But he loves us so so much that he is willing to take down his crown and step down from his throne to die for our sins!

Imagine God! willing to die for people! What a huge sacrifice! just because he loves us unholy people..

He is our maker...he makes us from dust...

I ask you, if you make something, wouldn't you want that thing to honour you to worship you and love you?
It is the same!
However, God came down as Jesus and get insulted by us, hit and stonned by us, scolded by us
when he is the one that made us!
Don't you think God's love is so so great and amazing?!
So shouldn't you love him back?

As the song goes...."the greatest love that anyone could ever know, that overcame the cross and grave to find my soul..."

I love him, cause he sacrificed so much because he loves me...shouldn't you do so too?

God loves you alot!!

Crossing the road

Oh! There was one incident that i experienced not long ago...
I was like going home crossing the road that crosses from Bukit Batok MRT to the interchange...

It was like a super short and small road...
I was walking to it to wait for it to turn green before i can cross, loads of people just came rushing and hitting against me as they cross the road with the red man...it was like a flow kind of thing. I seemed to be dragged by them just like a force pulling me over...it is like any normal person will just follow the flow kind of thing...

But, I stood there with everyone passing by me and hitting against me...
Until there is green man then I cross...

I had a thought going through my mind...

Are we Christians going to let the flow of the world carry us through just like that? Sinning against God and following what the world do, not being a point of difference, crossing the road at the wrong time (going into hell) OR are we going to stand for doing the right thing and standing for God no matter what and wait patiently and hold on till the very end.

Even though temptations may hit us and push us, are we going to stand firm and wait for the green man to appear to indicate us to cross over to the kingdom of God?

God loves you!

Leading worship

Hey hey!! couldn't come online the past few days cause i always come back late...hahhaa=)
Anyways..today i had choir prac at G2 then leading worship at G1 for children's church (CC) then Choir combined prac at G2 again!
Really had a super busy day travelling around...
Oh! anws, i wanna talk about the part whereby i lead worship at G1 for CC..

Today, i lead worship at CC...it was a terrible one...actually i expected it before i lead..
For all those who don't know, leading worship here means to stand infront, holding the mic...etc..
Do you know why i expected it?
Cause previously i led before for the P5s and P6s for 3 services and i totally screwed it up...=(
i got like leaders in the church saying that i can do better and saying that this time it is not very good previously...etc..
Actually, i would prefer them not to say anything...cause i already knew i screwed up...they made me feel worst..
It was never easy leading worship...we had to use hand gestures to signal the musician like when to sing the chorus, verse and bridge...and we have to know when to come in with thee music to sing and we have to pray in between songs and do the transitions..etc..with fear!
It was never easy...and the leaders in church always have such high expectations of me being a leader and being able to lead..they never considered that it was my first time previously...

This is like my first time leading worship for the P1s to P6s...a larger group..
And as usual i was scared...
The first two songs is i choose one...it is amazing God and with Christ in the vessel..they are action songs...
The last two are everyday and from the inside out..chosen by eloise(my loved one!)
the first two songs were ok...but when it came to the third and fourth song, everything went bad...i couldn't go with the pianist (abigail)...and the children, only a few were singing...i was scared...i screamed for God's help...
After the whole thing, i was just in a state of shock and sadness...
i told eloise, elo, i don't think i am meant to lead worship...i don't have a gift in this area at all...i wanna give up...i don't think that i am able to lead worship..and my voice sucks=(" actually i expected it la...
eloise say,"no! God give you a nice voice for a reason! and your gift is here! the worst thing is to give up on yourself and to have self fulfilling prophesy!"
Oh! i haven tell you all, cause my dream is to become a christian singer in future....so i was real sad...

After that, while i was still feeling real discouraged and sad, while i was watching some christmas movie in the children's church ministry, the Holy spirit spoke to me....
i realise that i shouldn't give up just like that...cause maybe God is preparing me to lead in future...thats why he is placing so many opportunities right infront of me now to let me practice, fail and learn...when i fail i learn...i should thank God that he let me fail in church, in front of a small no. of people...i dunno what the future has install for me...but what i am sure is that God will take care of it!"
A song came into my mind...the song is"voice of truth"
one part of the lyrics goes...."To step out of my comfort zone, to the realm of the unknown where Jesus is, and he is holding his hand. But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me, reminding me of all the times i tried before and failed. The waves at keep on telling me, time and time again, Boy, you'll never win!.....But the voice of truth, tells me a different story..."

As long as you look to God in everything you do and not focus on the times you have failed, but the on times you have succeeded, i am sure God will allow you to succeed oneday!
Do not focus on whats other's comments are on you, but focus on what God has to say to you...
As long as you do that, even the hardest wind, can never blow you away...
Look at the future and not what you might be facing now!
Rmb to read his word daily! and God will speak to you!
Don't let satan win!! yeah!!
Jia you!

God bless!!

Self-centredness

I was just helping my sister to search for something online when i chanced upon a website...
There was a video that i found it was quite interesting...

There was a sermon...
And the sermon was on self-centeredness!
He say that whenever something goes terribly wrong, we blame it on Satan...
Satan is like our enemy and we place all the blame on him...
we may think that Satan is our greatest enemy. The enemy of all mankind...
However, what we do not realize is that our greatest enemy is not Satan. It is our self-centeredness!
God sent Jesus down to die on the cross for us to free us from the self-centredness present within us...
To not focus on ourselves but to focus on the world and the people around us...

As you see several natural or man-made disasters happening around the world...
earthquake, tsunami, floods, riots, terrorists..etc..and many lives are being lost just like that...thousands and millions lives are gone so quickly, entering into hell...
When is the last time that you feel sad and prayed for them...when is the last time that you moan and fast for this matter...when is the last time you sat down with your family and pray?


There was this website that may answer some of your questions about religion and christianity..i think it is real cool!
so you all should go and check it out! yeah!
http://www.gotquestions.org/questions_salvation.html

God Bless you!

worshipper VS complainer

Today, i would like to talk about the sermon that was being said last sun...

There are two kinds of people on the earth...
1) worshipper
2) complainer

What is considered as being a worshipper?
It is when even in the worst circumstances, you will turn your eyes upon God and look into his way, not on yourself..
It is when you thank God for everything and in whatever situation that you face...
An example is that when God's people are trapped within the cell like the inner dungeons where all the human wastes are, just because they did good, as said in the bible. Instead of complaining and acting out the way that any other normal human beings will, they sing praises, worship God and thank him!
Don't you think it is amazing?

How about a complainer?
it is when even if you are in the best situations, you can always find fault and something bad to complain about...
the pastor gave an example..
He say that when he got his O lvl results, he got a total of 12 points after the minus...
He was real happy and thank God for it!
All his other friends including all the girls got like 6 and 7 points before the minus...
They plan to go to all the top schools in Singapore...
There was one particular friend, he had 8 points (which is very good already!).
However, he complained "ai ya! how come i get an A2 for chemistry! if not i can get 7 points ler!"

After he said this, i had a thought in my mind...
i recalled about the times when i went overseas with my classmates...
even though we stayed in like a not so bad hotel, they still complained, just because it is not up to their expectations...
Do you know that an average Singaporean complain at least 3 times a day? (i think i said it before)
Are you guilty of it?

He said that A human's mind can turn heaven into hell or hell into heaven.

You may ask, how do i become a worhipper then?
It is when you close your eyes and zoom out...zoom out to see the larger picture...zoom out to see how fortunate you are as compared to others and not focus on the tiny little details that causes you to complain...

There are several things that you can plan and schedule...
like mon you are going to do what, tues do what, wed do what...etc.
However, there is one thing that you cannot plan.
And that is trails from God..
you cannot say...ok, i am free on thurs like this time, so God you can test me here, at this timing...
God can place situations in your life to test whether you are a worshipper or a complainer.
So you must always be prepared...
But there is one thing that i wanna tell you...
is that people are watching...
your friends, family members are watching how you react to certain situations...
Are you ready?

We always talk about the need to follow Jesus...follow the ways of him...
The story about Jesus multiplying 5 loaves and 2 fishes to feed the 5 thousand ppl, Jesus thank God for the food and it increased in numbers..
Thanking God unleashes supernatural powers and it is also the key to a miracle..

There are 4 kinds of prayer
1) Mercy
2) Petition-request for help
3) intercession-when you interceed for someone else
4) Thanksgiving
The last one unlocks the presence of God..
When you thank God, it unleashes miraculous powers into your life!
Always always look towards God in every situation you are in, and you will find joy!

Are you going to be a typical Singaporean, always complaining?
or a worshipper? someone that is different.
Jia you!

God loves you!

Quiet time!

Hello! i just came back from church leader's retreat!!!
yeah! it was fun! the second day only...
However, i recieve several problems in relationships as well as me being a leader....
Pray that i will not give up while facing all these emotional problems, but to grow from it!
For now, i just feel like the whole world is tumbling over me...i didn't realise that i have so many expectations to meet, so many stresses...even in church...i thought church is suppose to be a place of taking a break from the outside world, just to worship God...just feel like giving up and taking a break from church and from serving God...i just feel terrible on the inside...

Anyways, today i wanna talk about quiet time.
Quiet time is something that my church always emphasize on and stressing on the importance of quiet time...
For all those who do not know what is quiet time, it is a time whereby you meditate on God's word as you read the bible or any other christian material...
It is a time being placed aside for God and God only...to communicate with God and to seek for God's will in your life...
It is a time of focus on God...
what i realise is that there are so many thousand things going on in our lives that we always complain that time is not enough...
So, even i as a christian may sometimes not do my quiet time cause i spend my time doing something else like watching tv, using the com...then by the time i wanna do quiet time, i already lose the focus and it gets too tiring and sleepy for me to do it already..

There was once recently, i asked Jondave from like young adults ministry whether he got do qt annot, the answer that he gave me was that he didn't really do much cause he got several tests this week...
i told him how important qt is regarding one's spiritual walk with God and to bond with him...
telling him that if your really love God, just like if you love someone, you would want to talk to the person like everyday...
morever, it is like taking like 10 to 15 min of your time like 24 hours for God!

He taught me something new...
He say that doing qt is just like a secondary factor...it is not as impt as living out your life as a christian..
He asked me,' How are you assured of your salvation?'
And said that ' not all who call Jesus as lord will enter the kingdom of God.'
I answered...it is when you take up the cross and follow Jesus..it is when you let God's word to master you and to really live out a Godly life!
he say that qt is suppose to be part of our life as a christian...
And that, you are actually doing qt when you spend time with God...it can be on the bus reading the bible and praying, when you are with your friends and talking to God...etc. Anywhere at any time, when you worship God...
God deserves more than just 10 to 15 min of your time...
If you think it this way, you wouldn't be bounded with the question of whether you have done the 15 min of qt cause qt is actually limitless!!
Doing qt is good...if you can do then it is better...but spending that 15 min of your time with God is not the main focus...

I started to think about it and accept the fact that qt is not as important as i think it is...
I told this to my best friend leng shan...
Her opinion is that she do not want to feel so comfortable...
Lets just say you just pray and talk to God when you are free...or when you just think of him like on the bus or even walking back home....she wants to get out of her comfort zone to serve God...

I also told this to cheryl, my senior cum friend from church..
I told her this during the church leader's retreat..
Her reply was that qt is something that is really impt!
why?
she say that qt is a time whereby you really sit down and meditate on God's word and listen to what he has to say to you...
Not whether you think about him annot...
It is a time that you schedule in your day specially for him..cause he is special..
It is a time of focus whereby you step out of your comfort zone for him...
cause it is difficult to focus like on the bus or when you are with your friends even though you may be praying...
Morever, if you really love God, you would want to do something for him..
Since we are children of God, and we take Jesus as our example to lead our lives according to, we should follow his way of praying and talking to God...
Going to a quiet place without anyone to look at you doing it, close the door and do it...
It is a special time that you and God share...only you and God...

So, rmb to do your quiet time.
Just start out with like 10 min of your time...
I am sure that as you grow in God, the time spent with God will be lengthened as one hunger and thirst for more of God's word...
Jia you!!!

God Bless you!!

Just a thought to share about faith and trust

I was reading this verse while doing quiet time...
mark chap 4 verse 38 to 40 "Jesus Himself was in the stern, asleep on the cushion; and they woke Him and said to Him, 'Teacher, do You not care that we are perishing?' And He got up and rebuked the wind and said to the sea, 'Hush, be still." And the wind died down and it became perfectly calm. And he said to them, 'Why are you afraid? Do you still have no faith?"

I recalled there was once, i brought a friend to church....he is a non-christian..
Before and throughout the whole service, i was so so worried...i was so worried that God will not touch his heart and open it...i was so worried that he will not come again...i was worried that he will feel uncomfortable in church..
I was worried about this and that...so so many worries!

My best friend Leng Shan told me to place everything into God's hands and to trust in him...
i said i did! but i just stop myself from worrying!
i told her it is just like you going into an exam...you tell yourself to place everything in God hands and tell yourself not to fear cause God is here...
But, you will just fear de...

i realised through this verse that if one really have the faith and the trust to believe that God can do anything and everything, you wouldn't be scared at all...cause you are placed in good hands...
It is just like if you really trust that someone to do something for you and that that person will do it for you de kind, you wouldn't be worrying that that person won't do it for you right?
You will be able to focus fully on doing other things..

I can only just keep praying and asking God for patience with me that he can help me to grow the trust in him...and really have total faith in him...

God bless you!!

Sin is pleasurable

Hello! I am back from mawai!!
I can only tell you it is an eco trip and it is both fun but not fun at the same time!!
For more information, you only can get it from me!
Oh! God has been helping me throughout this trip and made it enjoyable and fun for me...
i found out how amazing God can be from creating all the stars in the universe with several other solar systems on the outside and about why the stars twinkle from Gabriel (a guy from my group)...
Since it is an eco camp, we had to be one with nature and it had made me realise how every single root of a tree is important and how great and mazing my God is in creating the seas, rivers and insects...i love God!!

Anws, what i want to talk about today is about Sin...
What kind of sin you may ask?
It is the knowledge that the thing you are doing is wrong, but still purposely do it...
I was with a group of friends on the way a shopping centre in malaysia like on the bus...
They started talking about pirated cds..
They said that they wanted to buy and what shows they wanted to watch and to buy...
In the midst, there was my friend (A), a christian...and she was those kind on fire for God kind...
I told them said that "eh, don't buy pirated cds la! my mother even wanted to throw away all the pirated cds..."
the reply that i got from her (A) was "she rich mah..."
My other friend (B) said "why cannot?"
i said "cause it is wrong to buy pirated cds."
my other friend (B) said "wah...you very guai leh.."
(A) said "but why waste money on such an expensive cd then watch already then throw away? my mother and i always buy de..almost all the cds in my house are all pirated"
All my other friends agreed...
i repeated myself again to not buy pirated cds cause it is wrong....but nobody listened...
I thought friend (A) will help me like at least give me some support that this is a wrong thing to do...
The sermon of pastor ronald came into my mind...
i decided to just cut myself out of the convo and stopped talking...just looking out of the window of a moving bus..
Why did she support sin? when i already made it so clear that it is a wrong thing to do?
i was very disappointed in her at that point of time...really...
What to do?
Sin is pleasurable....sin is pleasurable..
we are made to enjoy sinning...
when we sin, we feel really pleased and happy..
But God gave all christians the Holy Spirit to fight against sin to remind us that what we are doing is wrong...
This, is the difference between a non-christian and a true christian..

It is not only this kind of sin, there are so many so many sins in this world...even the choice of words we use...even though we know that saying all these things are wrong, we still do it...
Why?
simply because this world supports sin!

what is feel is that if you sin without knowing that what you are doing is wrong, it is still not as bad and knowing that you are sinning but can't help doing it...
But what i know is, me, being a christian, is suppose to shine for God's name! knowing that when others see me, they will know that i am leading a Godly life and shine for God's glory...to show the world the truth..and the right thing to do...with the help of the holy spirit!
i want to be the point of difference!
Jia you to everyone!

God bless you

Persecution!

Oh! i will be going mawai like tmr..so i will only be back on the 4th dec!
Today, Pastor Ronald talked about the last beattitude....
It is on the verse matthew chap 5 verse 10 "Blessed are those who have been persecuted for the sake of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."

He talked about many christians having to master the bible just like a walking bible...
like whenever you need a verse, he can just tell you straight kind of thing...
It is not say not good, but it is BETTER to let the bible master you!
What do i mean by that?
If you let the bible and God's word to master you, you are actually carrying out God's word in your life...you live a Godly and Christ-like life!
It depends on what kind of christian you wanna be. Those which are mastered or are just only mastering...
But one thing i can be sure is that. If you are a christian, like a true one, you WILL face persecution in one way or another.

When we talk about persecution, many people will think that ai ya..in a place like Singapore, me being a christian will not face any persecution de...only God's 12 disciples as said in the bible face persecution. Or, only those missionaries who like go overseas to some exotic places to spread God's word will face persecution...(physical persecution)
Their flesh will be ripped apart...their heads will be chopped off...their body parts will be cut off one by one, they are set on fire, stonned etc...just because one is a christian...
It is like even found today!
Statistics show that 40 million people died because of Christ after Jesus died until now...
Also, out of this 40 million, 60% are children!
As for now, everyday, 300 christians dies!
In Singapore, we don't face it...but as we live our normal lives, eating breakfast, going church, eat lunch with friends, maybe go for a movie, shopping etc. 300 christians are dying!
If terrorist were to come, the first people that they will pick out to have some fun with will be the jews...then they will ask for christians...they will not ask for buddist or any other religion...

However, God did not only mention having physical persecution. Persecution includes other factors like verbal and scandal.
In matthew chap 5 verse 11" Blessed are you when people insult you and persecute you, and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of Me."
what do i mean by verbal/scandal persecution?
Verbal persecution is one that i always face...people talk behind your back and gossip about you, saying how holy you are, mocking you and making fun of you just because you chose you lead a Godly life! A life that follows according to God's word! In my case, my friends always say..."wah...somebody so holy ah.."
The world loves sin and rejoices with it...people take pleasure in Sinning...thats why when doing the right thing comes along, they will hate it!
For example, if your friends are like gossiping and talking about other people, you wouldn't be comfortable with them cause they are actually sinning...you will just walk away..or have the courage to be a peacemaker! to tell them that "Hey! this is not right, we shouldn't be talking about this. stop it."
Do you think when you tell them to stop, they will be very happy about it?
Will they be like wah! so good..i really wanna be like you..thank you for telling me what is wrong...you are so nice to us...
No! they won't!

Jesus did not die because he did good...he died because he was different from the rest...
The Scribes and Pharasis did not like Jesus and hated him because Jesus was righteous and holy...Jesus was so good as compared to them..thats why they wanted to get rid of him...the world do not like Godly people....

If you were to ask your friend to come to church, the first time your friend may say, ai ya...don need la...
if you ask again, your friend might say no...
if you ask the third time, you friend may say...NO! which part of NO do you not understand? the N or the O?!
if you ask the fourth time, your friend might just seclude you...
You won't be very much well liked by your friends..

In 2timothy chap 3 verse 12"Indeed, all who desire to live godly in Christ Jesus will be persecuted."
Are you as a christian being persecuted?
If you are not, are you really one?
If you are not being persecuted, one reason is that your friends can tolerate with your Godly life...or is it that you are not even leading one? Is it that you have lowered your standards of what a Godly life is all about? Have you entered and become part of the world...being indfferent?
Maybe your friends don't even know that you are a christian...

If you don't want to be persecuted then just don't care about saving your friends...then don't care about whether they are going heaven or hell...don't care about being a christian and leading a Godly life...don't care about how God sees you...don't need to share with them about christ...don't need to tell them that they are going to hell..

If you are facing persecution, it can tell you that you are actually children of God...
Because if you are children of God, you will enjoy God's glory with him and suffer the same thing that Jesus suffers!
Also, it can serve as a conviction that you are actually doing the right thing and leading a Godly life whereby God is pleased with you...
matthew chap 5 verse 12"Rejoice and be glad, for your reward in heaven is great; for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you."
Rejoice and be glad that you are persecuted?
Is God saying that we must like throw a party and are like super happy when people persecute us?
No!
it is the WILLINGNESS to get persecuted..NOT SEEK for persecution but will carrying out all the other beattitudes said in the bible at matthew chap 5, we will confirm be persecuted...
Don worry!
Cause our reward is not found on this earth! our reward is more than we can ever expect!
Only when we are weak from all the persecutions that we face, then, we can be strong as we depend more on God rather than ourselves!

2corinthians chap 4 verse 17-18 "For momentary, light afflicition is producing for us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison, while we look not at things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal."

James chap 1 verse 2-4 "Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing."

Leading a Godly life is not one that is being lead by an extrovert..one that talks alot...it can be lead by anyone! introvert or even people of all ages! As long as you are willing to take this step of faith out and pray and ask the holy spirit to lead you and give you courage, you can be the point of difference and shine God's light to the ends of the earth!

God Bless you!

God's will

When i was on my way back home carrying like all the stuffs from batam, taking the 61 bus, i took out a small bible to read...
I came across this verse in matthew chap 27 verse 42 to 43 when Jesus was crucified and the people are mocking him.."He saved others; He cannot save Himself. He is the King of Israel; let Him now come down from the cross, and we will believe in Him. He trusts in God; Let God rescue Him now, If He delights in Him; for he said, 'I am the Son of God.' "
When i was at the batam trip, i was finding opportunity to share Christ...whenever i see one, i will grab it...
Even in like Singapore, i will do that when i am amongst my non-christian friends.
I realise that even though the priests and people ask Jesus to come down from the cross and through that, they will believe him, Jesus did not come down at all even if he had the ability to. He really follows and go according to God's will in like everything that he do...he clearly understands his purpose for coming down to earth and does it!

God creates everyone with a purpose and everyone has a different purpose...we have to keep on praying and seeking God for our own purpose in life...
We have to fully understand what is God's will for us to live life to the fullest.
I realise that i shouldn't use my own understanding to plan and see when am i going to share the gospel and what to say to my friends..but i should first seek God's will and plan before carrying out anything...
Only through this, then i can save more lives than i can ever expect!
People these days use God's will so easily like everything and anything that happen is all God's will...they fail to truely understand what exactly is God will....
Since Jesus seek for God's will, what more us?

God loves you always! muacks!

My batam trip

Hello! miss me?!
I came back from batam like on fri evening!
Anw, i would just like to talk about my trip cause i am like going mawai which is somewhere is malaysia from like 1-4 dec! so i won't have time to blog! ahhhh!

Hmmm...the purpose of me going there is to make friends with the orphans, help them to build a house and to provide basic necessities for them!
On my way to the orphanage which is like outside of the city area, i just saw a small part of the lifestyle of people..
What i saw outside of my window is just houses. Houses made out of cardboard and zinc roofs...
People walking around without shoes...etc..

Then, a thought came into my mind...i suddenly rmb what my father asked me like a few months ago..
He said "If your God is real, why would he allow some people in certain countries to suffer poverty while others are like rich?"
I couldn't answer him at that point of time...
Now, as i was looking out of my window, i realise that God is actually fair!
What i see is people gathering together, watching tv, playing football, bathing or even just talking...
As the bus went by, children and even the adults there waved and smiled at us very happily!
I started to ponder, why are the people there so happy while my friends and Singaporeans are like complaining about this and that...
Do you know that an average Singaporean will at least complain 3 times a day?!

I feel that even Singaporeans are like rich materialistically, they are not contented with what they have and still want more...
Singapore is even considered as one of the most umhappy country amongst all the other countries!
While as for indonesians, even if they do not get to enjoy the material stuff, they are happy...
Cause the only thing that they have there is people...their emphasis is more on bonding...both family, friends and even neighbours!
This is something that Singaporeans should actually learn!
Their buildings are also one lvl kind...so they also get to see the broad sky across!

There are some things that i learnt about that country...
Do you know that you cannot touch the indonesian's head like even the children? it is considered as being rude...
They also sell bottles of oil to fill their motorbikes in mama shops!
Also, their motorbikes are really cheap! like 400 to 500 sing!
Anyone of any age can also ride a bike! and it can seat up to 5 ppl!
Also, they do not like and cannot eat things that are too hygienic just like how Singapore cannot eat things that are dirty.
I ever saw one scene...there is this orphan...she is like only 4 years of age...
She ate a cup of ice cream that my friend bought for the orphans when the "icecream man" drove in...
She accidently drop it...and the whole cup drop on the floor..She wanted to cry! but another indonesian incharge of the orphanage, she scoop the icecream up, wipe off the sides and hand it over to the girl! Inside the icecream still got dirt!
I was just stunned! i really dunno what to say...
Also! after the orphans bathe, they can actually play in the sand and get themselves all dirty again!

At the end, we didn't complete the house even though we work from 8 to 6 like for 2 days still cannot finish!
We only completed half...
Who knows that building a house can actually be so so difficult and really tiring!
We go to carry the bricks from there to here, here to there...
Carry water from downhill to up hill to make cement to fill in the holes in the bricks (apparently it is because of budget)
tranfer land into the inside of the foundation..etc.
The kids there were really cute and adorable..we played soccer with them!

Oh! i tell you! the things in batam is really cheap! the exchange rate is really good!
It is like $1 to 8000 rupiah! pity that i didn't bring enough money...if not i will buy like mad ler!
Everything there is like super cheap! you know converse shoes are like 16 dollars! and i bought this rip curl cap for like 10 plus dollars only when the actual price is like 30 plus!
You know i am not those kind that like to shop de...hahaha=)
And the hotel was great!!!

God bless you always!

Peter (one of the disciples)

When i was on my way home from plaza singapura, i read this on the bus..and this thought came into my mind...
It was matthew chap 26 verse 34 to 35 "Jesus said to him, 'Truely i say to you that this very night, before a rooster crows, you will deny Me three times.' Peter said to Him, 'Even if i have to die with You, i will not deny You." All the disciples said that same thing too.
Jesus was talking to Peter, one of the disciples...

Oh! i was reading the rehmma booklet before reading the Bible!
and guess what?!
they talked about peter too! cool right?
it was the topic on Nothing in Secret!
somemore it is i anyhow random flip one leh!
One sentence said "Will you slink away like Peter when your faith is being tested?"
God works in amazing ways!

Anw, i was thinking about this topic that God provided me with...and i started to think...are we as christians going to really be like Peter? Are we going to be singing songs in church during worship about how we love God and are willing to die for him kind and not mean it?
Maybe we do mean it..but are you sure one is going to overcome the fear of death and die because of God? or are we going to run away and turn our backs towards him?
For me, although i always sing and i mean it from my heart...
But who knows what will i do when i really face with a situation to die for God?
Who knows how i am going to react in a moment of fear and despair?
Let just say when a gun points at you asking you whether you are a christian annot?
I fear that i will be like Peter...being so confident at first, but at the end, denying God=(

May God bless you!

Peacemakers Vs Peacekeepers

Hello! i am going to batam for ocip like from the 25 to 28 nov! rmb to pray for my safety k?
so i won't be blogging during this time...hahaha=)
Today, pastor ronald preach on the verse matthew chap 5 verse 9 "Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God." so, i am going to help you define what is the difference between peacemakers and peacekeepers!

At first i thought they are both like the same!
Anw,
Many people in this world are usually peacekeepers...
At home, some people just keep quiet whenever the family members scream and scold...
Some people just get out of the way, trying to keep peace and not anger the other person any further...
Some people will just pretend nothing has happened just because they are afraid of conflicts happening...
Lastly, some will ignore..
These people are peacekeepers...they may have alot of hatred and anger in their hearts but they just do not want to say it out...just bottling them..

Peacemakers must have peace themselves...do you agree?
If they have peace, then they can bring about peace to others right?
Peacemakers must have righteousness...
Peacemakers must love God and understand God's defined peace...
There are a total of 3 characteristic to show whether you are a peacemaker or just a peacekeeper!
1) Know peace inwardly.
This is saying that we have to make peace with God first. eg. when you sin, you ask God to forgive you and make peace with him...and it must be an everyday thing!
2) To bring peace spiritually.
This means to CONSTANTLY try to make peace and to bring people to make peace with God!
And the only way to help them make peace with God so that they can gain the God defined peace, is by evengelising...
So! are you going to be one?
3)Pursue peace socially.
This means that we shouldn't purposely do things that cause conflicts and to RESOLVE to conflicts! not to run away from it.
Will you today, go up to the person that you are hurt by and you just hide the matter but still rmb, to go up to the person and say "although i was hurt by you, but i forgive you."

This verse helped me when i had a conflict with someone not so long ago..and it taught me to forgive that person and to show love...
matthew chap 18 verse 22 to 35! it is like super long..so i will summerise...it is about this King and a slave owed the King 10 000 talents. But the slave do not have the money...the King wanted to sell him and his family for repayment...the slave fell down to the ground and pleaded to more patience with him and he will repay...the King felt compassion and released him + forgiving his debt.
When the slave went out, he found out that one of his fellow slave owed him 100 denarii. He grabbed him and began to choke him and demanded his money to be paid back. The slave asked for patience too! But he was unwilling and threw him in prison.
His fellow slaves saw this and felt sad...they reported to the King all that had happened...
The King was super angry! He summoned him and said, "You wicked slave, i forgave you all the debt because you pleaded with me. Should you not do the same?"
The King sent him to the torturers until he should repay all that was owed.
In the same way, God will do the same if you do not forgive your brother or sister with your heart.

We have the rights to tell those which are doing wrong, especially our brothers and sisters in christ that what they are doing is wrong...
You may ask, won't this create conflicts?
When you tell someone the truth nicely and with love, they will either get more agitated or accept what you say...
But it doesn't matter...not everyone will be able to accept the truth! and truth doesn't really sound very good to some...
But! as long you bring peace and truth, you are a peacemaker..and peacemakers are? sons of God!
what do i mean when i say that?
It means that God takes pride in us! and thats all that matters!
of course when the person don't accept what you say, then don't go on and purposely agitate the person...you just have the right to let the person know...

So! as long as you have peace in your heart, help others make peace with God and make peace with others, you ARE a PEACEMAKER! and God is proud of you!
Pray to the Lord for strength and courage to do so too!!

God loves you!!

Blindness

Today, when i was on my way for work at the child care centre...like on the 961 bus, i closed my eyes and listened to a christian song...the Holy Spirit showed me things...

The Holy Spirit showed me the advantages of being blind...
In this world, there are several seeking and persuing material and the physical stuff. Things that they can see to ask for what they want...eg. statues.
They never really think and use their heart to understand it...
Being blind gives the blind an advantage to not see...
hmmmm....you may ask, huh? what do you mean?
Try closing your eyes and just quieten down your heart....
Try to think and imagine...without your eyes to see, what other tools can be used to see and feel what the other person is feeling...
If you are blind, what you will use is your heart...
You will use your heart to see..to see the world around you...to feel the people around you whether it is filled with love or hatred...don't you think so?
And the blind will find themselves feeling and understanding the love of God with their heart because they cannot see...
They also won't get distracted by the things around them and focus on God..cause it is like when we pray, we close our eyes to concentrate and focus...so, same concept.

Oh! the Holy Spirit led me to a previous verse that i didn't understand and question my friends about...it is John chap 9 verse 41 "Jesus said to them, 'If you were blind, you would have no sin; but since you say, 'We see,' your sin remains."
At first i really do not have any clue on this...until now!
Because Jesus was talking to the pharisees that do not know him as the son of man, they do not actually see the truth...they can only see with thier physical eyes...
So if they say they see, they are lying...because actually they do not!

I was just sharing with my mum and sis about this particular story that touched me..
It was a story shared by Pastor Cui Xian...try to visualise!
There was 4 business men...they were like super late for their flight back home..
So they were like rushing for their flight in the airport..
4 of them were like running and sliding around...
then, they knocked into a stall selling apples..a girl was selling them..
all the apples fell onto the floor...
some were damaged..
However, the 4 business men ran away because they got no time to help her pick up the apples..
The last business man felt guilty.
So, he told the 3 other business men to tell his family that he will take the next flight and ask them to go first..
he turned around and went back to the fallen down stall..
he saw the girl frantically searching for her apples..
she was blind.
he went over and picked up the apples, separating the good ones from the damaged ones..
he took out his wallet and gave the girl money saying "i am so so sorry that your apples are damaged...here, this is to compensate for all the damage we have caused."
the blind girl took the money and when he was about to walk away, she said "wait, are you Jesus?"

God loves you all the time!

Prayers!

On my way to famosa, i just randomly flip the bible and just chanced upon this verse that i wanna share with you all today!

It is Luke, chapter 18 verse 2 to 8 " saying, "in a certain city there was a judge who did not fear God and did not respect man. There was a widow in the city, and she kept coming to him, saying, 'Give me legal protection from my opponent.' For a while he was unwilling; but afterward he said to himself, " Even though i do not fear God nor respect man, yet because this widow bothers me, i will give her legal protection, otherwise by continually coming she will wear me out.' And the Lord said, 'Hear what the unrighteous judge said; now, will not God bring about justice for His elect who cry to Him day and night, and will He delay long over them? I tell you that He will bring about justice for them quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will He find faith on earth?"

It took me awhile to figure out what this parable was...
This parable is talking about prayer!
It shows that even an unrighteous man, afraid of being pestered over and over again, gave the widow what she wanted. What more God?! When he is like so righteous and perfect!
As long as one have the faith to believe that all things are possible and keep on praying and praying, never giving up, God will answer your prayers ASAP!
You can try fasting and praying too! i heard that it works! must "pester" God! hahaha=)

I shared this verse because i want to encourage those who are praying for anything!
For healing, for friends and family to get saved, for revival, for strength..etc. ANYTHING!
I wanna tell you to press on and pray! Wait upon God and he will be able to do wonders!
Even if it takes 20 years, 30 years or even 40 years, as long as you press on, even the most stubborn man can be saved! Jia you!

God is good, all the time.
&
All the time, God is good!!

My God can do wonders!

Afamosa trip and my cousin bernice!

Hey hey ppl!!
I just came back from a famosa trip in malacca!
It was a 2 day 1 night trip (tour)-organised by my yi zhang from G1!!
It gave me a break...but! i struggled alot on the inside...

Oh! i brought my super duper big and heavy bible to famosa! cause i wanted to do my quiet time with it...
Anw, i went on this trip with my family plus my uncle's (mum's side) the family and my grandfather and ah yi pat and yi zhang!
My grandmother have like 7 children in total! so you can guess how many cousins and family my mum's side have!
However, the sad thing is that we are not close at all...i guess it is because we are self-contained...
2 of my cousins, Bernice (one year younger) and Benny (a few years younger) went for the trip.
They are very smart! cause one is in nanyang girls high and one is in hwa chong...
I struggled alittle, at first, to try to talk to them so that i can built a better relationship with my cousins and share the gospel with them (cause must bond first then easier to share mah)...but at the end, i managed to talk to them!
I asked them about their cca, sch and whether they go to church...then, i realised that they are backsliders...
i couldn't really bond with them cause it takes two hands to clap! if i am the only enthusiastic one trying to make friends and the other just answer to my questions then stop talking kind, it will be very difficult for me to communicate with them...
I asked Bernice "hey! why are you not a christian anymore?"
She said " oh! cause i prefer to be a free thinker..."
then i said "oh...okay." cause i really dunno how to reply her...i am loss for words..
Hmmm...afterthat, i just sat on the bus and thought of several things...i thought of how am i going to approach them...thoughts just filled my mind! like at night, what am i going to say, what i am going to do with them...and how to i spread God's word so that i can save them kind of thing..
Wah..i tell you, i think and think and think until i very stress..i really dunno what to do!
I decided to seek for God's help...i prayed saying "Lord, show me what i am suppose to do and give me the courage. Speak to me through this book"..."this book" is the rehmma book...something like a guide book on john...

Do you rmb the post on backsliding?
I was just randomly flipping the book for the first time and i just randomly came to a page and started to read it like the day after i wrote the post and God spoke to me!
It was on "He is Peace"...
One of the application question out of the two was, "Do you feel weary, wondering whether you have lost your passion for God because of your value that contradicts the world? Tell God about it." Don't you think that it exactly pin points the problem that i am facing? And God is saying that he knows!
You may think it is just coincidence, but, i do not believe that there are so many coincidences especially after i became a christian...

Anw, so i asked God to speak to me through the book...
i prayed and opened the book to any random page!
It was the article on "Trust and Obey"
After i saw this heading, the immediate thing that i thought of is, you sure this is an article that can solve the problem that you are facing now?
Hmmm..the application question is "Have you been like the enthusiastic crowd - volunteering to help God fulfil his plans in your own way? Tell God about it."
Don't you think God is amazing?!
I realise that i have been trying to save ppl. When i see one unsaved, i would be like a tiger, pouncing on the person without thinking...i realise that i was desperate to save lives by my own without understanding and knowing what God really wants me to do. I didn't know God's will for the person...i just plan things on my own. Do you?

So, i just prayed and prayed for myself, as well as for my cousins until i fell asleep...hahaha=)
Sometimes, i look at them, i will have some element of love, sadness and anger....
Love because they are my cousins and i want them to be saved and not fall back to the satan controlled earth..
Sadness because their hearts are cold and hard...their hearts are like a door that is previously opened, but they shut themselves from God..
Anger, because it is very difficult to love somebody that belongs to the earth...

I feel that although they are like super smart, win several prizes and are given several glory by men, they are lost souls that cannot find their Shepherd.
They have several external and material stuff like grades and stuff, but at the end, what is the whole point of having all these? To become successful in future? to earn lots of money? to make parents happy?
Is there a purpose for all these?
So what if you become really successful? they are all worldly stuff...
They have got no purpose in life...they don't have the interior fulfillment and joy...they don't have internal life!

Bernice, you may be reading this. Although this may sound harsh, but i really want to tell you to really make wise decisions in life. Life is short, and i really do not want you to regret.
You said you don't want to become a christian because you want to be free..
I can tell you that the true freedom that you are finding, can only be found in God...
Without God, you are being pulled down by the sins of this earth.
You are heavily chained with burdens, with satan pulling you back and making you sin and sin and sin...there is no freedom at all...
I can tell you that being a christian isn't easy, but being a christian, these chains can be broken and you gain internal fulfillment more than any other grades can bring you to!
If you are touched by God and you really love God, i am sure that you would be more than willing to go to church to just praise him and to hear his word...it shouldn't be a burden...

We all have choices to make in life.
Make the right one!
And once you know you make the right one, hold on to it and never let go no matter what!
Never let go=)

God loves you alot and he Never gives up on you!

Faith

Hmmm..today, Pastor Ronald talked about matthew chap 5 verse 8 "Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." (i will talk about this the next time...cause, change of plans=))

You know, ever since i became a christian...like a true one...i have always wanted to see God, hear God or even feel God!...anything!
My friends in cell or even leng shan (my bestest friend) told me that inorder to hear God, you got to really quieten down your heart...and be really sensitive to God's voice...
I tried. I prayed even, just hoping and wanting to hear God...
But, i heard nothing...
Afterthat, i realise that God doesn't really talk to you like anyother ordinary person talks to you...God communicates to different people in different ways...
Through thoughts, friends, family, bible or even through songs! as long as one is willing to listen out for him..

I became a christian not seeing God, not knowing anything, but just believe and by faith...
i started out wondering, i cannot feel God, God hasn't really reveal himself to me yet...why do i still believe in something that i cannot see?
I didn't get the baptism of the holy spirit, i did not feel God's power over me, i don't have any experience of God making me cry, get slain...etc.
I am not like the other christians...
so why bother holding on to him?
I realise that i hold on to him because i know, deep inside that he is the true God as everything in this world starts to make sense..
everything in this world starts to link..
as i grew as a christian and learn more things, this confirmation grew stronger and stronger..
One key factor that drove me and let me hold on to God no matter what...
is my promise to him..
the promise that i made that i will hold on to you no matter what happens. I will just cling on!
This is faith...
Faith is something that keeps you going as a christian!
know why?
cause i believe any man's love will fade away...this is so unlike God with so so much love..i would say, God is the only one that fulfills the true meaning of Love and no one else can!
God being right beside you, is not a feeling...
Faith is believing in something you do not see.
Even if you do not feel, touch nor smell, you will still believe...
Many christians backslide because they lack this faith...because they don't feel God and thinks that God isn't real...
It does not have to be God always chasing for you....why not you hold on to God and take his outstretched hand? don't let go..
I believe that God will reveal himself to you one day...
And i am waiting for that day too!
my question is, do you have the faith to hold on to God through everything?
My everything is through all times, all attacks, all problems, troubles, happiness...etc.
Think about it.

Usually the broken hearted and troubled people will then come and seek God...
i feel that human beings are really funny creatures...they must wait till something really bad happens, then, they will open up their heart to God...if not, their doors will always remain shut real tight!
Why wait till then when you got today?
God has already died for salvation of everyone...the deed is already done...it is just there for you to recieve it!
It is free! (i thought Singaporeans love free stuff, and will queue super long just to get it? haha=))
Just take it then! (why wait?)

God loves you! will you love him back? (it takes 2 hands to clap!)

My testimony

After so so many posts, i haven talked about my testimony!
I have heard so many stories of broken families..etc(including my friends's) i feel that i should talk about mine!
I tell you! it is really cool! and i am not ashamed to talk about it at all!
so continue reading it k!

Family history

I was born a Buddhist, my whole family is Buddhist like in the past!
My father placed me and my two other younger siblings in a Christian primary school (Pei Hwa)...
My parents are those that are open to me believing in any religion, as long as i get taught to do good...
My mother was a christian in the past, but she back slided and got married to my father (a buddist)----i think it is really cool and amazing! cause the church that she goes to in the past, is the exact same church that she is attending now! and it is my father who told her de..when he drive her to church..
i got influenced by the Christianity they cultivate in school and i became sort of a christian...but! i didn't go to church, nor feel that there is any change in me...it is like "just go lor!" kind...
i used to have a Buddhist sculpture at home...but i don't really feel anything for it like it is just there lor kind...(sometimes i even find it scary! cause got red lights and stuff..)
i just do what i was told..like to bai bai, and have the incense thingy..
My father is someone who focuses more on work and think that work is more impt than family kind of person..and that money can buy love from his children...so he always come home very late...
My mum, she was a very hot-tempered person i can tell you that!
(and they ALWAYS cane me de!)


After i go up to secondary school, things did not go well for me at all...i started to have fears that i never had before..fears that can haunt me, cause me to shake and sweat infront of people, to really lose my confidence (eg, during morn assembly when i hear the national anthem...you may think it is weird, but i had to fear every single day!-just imagine)
I church hop! i hop from one church to another like ONLY for their major events!
And i said like the sinners prayer like super alot of times!
i was just a backslider that do not feel that i belong to any church! and there is no need to go to church kind of thing...(when the school ask for your religion, i will always hesitate to think, am i a buddist or christian?)
Eh! believe it annot, i was a very quiet, don't really talk alot, and a back scene kind of guai guai, sweet sweet kind of person, very timid also...


Until when i was seconday 3!
Things started to change and God worked in my life as well as my family's!
Around feburary (my birthday somemore leh!) my father started to have an affair with a woman...wah! this time, it really turned my family upside down! when i first got the news, i thought my parents were going to get a divorse! My mum came home crying and all of us started crying (besides my father)...
The first thing i did was just to keep on practicing math! i just like everyday i come home, i will do math...cause that time i took A math mah...
I did all these just to numb myself..just to not let myself think of anything!
And guess what?
I got like 90 plus for the CA and 80 plus for like the SA...i top in math in my class! and got 2nd overall in my class! (and my math in sec 1 and 2 is like always very lousey de)
Although i get such an achievement, but i knew i was numbing myself on the inside..i wasn't happy at all...i knew that this kind of happiness is temporary...i was broken on the inside..


Due to the help of my auntie (we call her ah yi cat)..she is a very strong Christian! (dunno why i have never really heard her talked about God and share to us before..)
But! thank God she appeared when our family goes into this crisis...she started to share the gospel to my mum! and my mum will always cry on the phone..
However, i really wanna thank God for my mother!
i tell you! if God did not provide me with such a strong and optimistic mother, our family wouldn't have stood at all!
Due to this incident, she got touched by God! and the chains holding her back are broken free!
She started to go to Grace Assembly..cause is her oldest sis bring her de (we call her ah yi pat)..
I feel that God is amazing~ cause he has placed people to help us in the saddest moments of my mum's life!
My siblings and i started to follow my mum like sometimes to church (but it is chinese service!) and go for their camps and stuff...
But i still wasn't very close to God! (i was like afraid to raise my hands and sing and stuff)


Until sec 4!
I got to know Leng Shan like sec 3 end of year and because of these problems that we share, we became bestest friends!
I really really love her alot! until now!
Anw, around sec 4 march, we found out that our relatives go to the same church! Grace Assembly!!! And she goes there like for a week or something...
Then she brought me there like to the Shash cell 2006! when i first entered the church, i felt this sense of warmth..this warmth and homely feeling that i did not felt it in other churches...i started to feel so unafraid to make friends with the cell members!
At the end i stayed on...
And it was in this church that i felt God like never before!
heh heh..do you know that i started believing in God like really around this time and i just had child like faith..not knowing anything but just accept kind of thing...
This church has helped me to grow alot as a person and help me to find my purpose in life (cause i ever felt this emptiness in my heart and i asked my relatives(buddists) what is life about?-they say it is a cycle..but that doesn't really clear this emptiness that i was feeling in the past)
As i walk as a christian, i started to see and feel things differently..i started to realise how all the pieces in the puzzle of life fit!) i started to realise that what i believe in is true!


This year, i brought my sis to church and she settled down..my bro followed my mum to G2 for the children's church there...
So it is like because of my dad, 4 people in the family got saved! cool right?!
My mum changed to become a less hot-tempered person and a more loving one...
I changed
My sis changed drastically too! She changed from a super angry and frustated person stomping around the house and waking everyone up kind, to become a loving sister and always there to hear what i have to say and share..
My bro changed in terms of his attitude to studies and know how to share the gospel to his friends when he is like only 8!
I think my God is an amazing God! and if he can change my family and turn it right side up, i am sure he can change yours too!!
As long as you believe that he can do the impossible and make it possible!
Always pray pray and pray!!

Oh! as for my father, he is in stationed in China now with the woman and is a very strong buddist!..
Although i use to dislike him in the past because of this, my mindset of him changed because i realise that since God loves me, i should love him the same way!
I am sure that God loves him alot too!!
As long as our family continue to PRAY! i believe that even the most stubbon person can come to know the love of God!
I don't mind waiting for 10 years or even 20 years for my father to get saved! (cause i know that God has his own timing=))
For all those who read my blog, pray for my father k?
Thx alot!


So, my main point here is that God has a plan for each and everyone of us! as long as we believe and trust in him!
What you think may be a trouble now or an obstacle that you are currently facing, may not be actually that bad! As long as you are in God's hands, after all these has tied over, you will come to realise that God's plan is so much better than yours!
So, trust in him!!



God bless you always!

Backsliding

You know, there are like so many people out there that are on fire for God with so much passion for him when they first come to know him...but will drift off afterthat and backslide once this passion disappears!
I am one of them...(i was a backslider that came back to God when i was sec 3!)
Nowadays, i feel that there is something weird inside me, i feel that this passion for God is fading away..and i am afraid of that...i really want my passion for God to be everlasting! not like the others...
Why do i feel this way?
I dunno..because when i face my non-christian friends, i started to care about what they will say, i started to feel afraid and awkward and uneasy to talk about God...i no longer stop them for using certain words...all i do is just to listen and accept...
I really don't want this to happen! i fear to lose God!
I kept on praying...

During the Shash cell today, i felt like telling them, but i just dunno how to say....after this thought, i realise that i am not the only one facing this problem! Tiffanie, one of the cell girls, she also feels drifted away from God because of one of her friend...
As Edith and cheryl (our cell leaders) start to advice her, thoughts came into my mind...
What are they?
these are thoughts that i believe it is the Holy Spirit that told me...thoughts about how God has lead me till where i am now! thoughts that show me how amazing God is and how God has changed my family and my life as a Whole! Thoughts that God actually has his own perfect plan!
Cheryl gave an advice!
If you feel that you are backsliding, the best way is to read God's word and question yourself whether you really love God annot? Keep on reminding yourself how God loves you and the fact that he died for you and better to read psalms..cause it really helps!
I added on after the thoughts that i had...
you must keep on reminding yourself how God has brought you through and how he has changed and transformed your life into...from the start, before you were ever a true christian..
You will realise that without God, you are nothing..
Without God you wouldn't have the happiness that you currently have...
Without God, you wouldn't be where you are today!

I believe that what i am feeling now is due to spiritual attacks and it is satan's doings...Edith say that once you get out of this prob and really break through, you will grow stronger in God!
Do not just fall into satan's trap but to break through of it!
I will continue praying and hope you all can pray for me and yourselves too!

(actually you know, i wasn't even intending to write about this, i was suppose to write about my testimony..but! i dunno why i wrote about this, and i believe it is a Holy Spirit that wants me to write it!) haha=) yeah!

God loves you!!

Is the bible true?

The main reason why ppl nowadays do not want to believe in God and become a Christian is because they think that the bible is just another story book...or it is just because they do not see Jesus...
Ppl usually believe in the things that they see instead of the things that cannot be seen by their eyes physically..
Today, i would like to touch on the bible...
Is it true?

While i was looking up on the website that Kenneth send to me about catholics and protestants, i chanced upon a website when i was searching for the differences in a christian and catholic bible...
I can tell you it is a really cool website! you all should go and check it out and read everything!
But i would just like to point out some interesting facts that i myself don't even know!
http://www.everystudent.com/sg/features/bible.html?gclid=COiT8_bD7pYCFRQNewodMCsYrw

The bible is written by many and these people are those that do not even know each other!
These people are also those that are from different times and different places..
Many scholars date the writing of the Gospels between 30 to 60 years after Jesus' death.
In the new testament, there are four books "Matthew, mark, Luke, john" these are the ppl who wrote biographies regarding Jesus of Nazareth and similar facts about his life.
Although they do not really cover all of the same info, the four gospels tell essentially the same story...(go look at the table of Matthew Mark Luke John from the website for their similarities shown in the bible verses)-i took one hour to try to put it up here but failed=(

Matthew and John are men who knew Jesus personally and travelled with him for over 3 years. While Mark and Luke are close associates of the apostles. Therefore, they have direct access to the facts they were recording...(they couldn't have wrote it together because they wrote it many years after Jesus died and rose again...)

Each of the 4 gospel writers made a very detailed account. There is variation in style but agreement in facts...They couldn't have made it up cause the gospels gave specific geographical names and cultural details that have been confirmed by historians and archaeologists..Jesus recorded words leave out many topics the early church would have liked a statement on shows that the biographers were honest and not putting words into Jesus' mouth for their own advantage...

I have a friend called Kai Yuan...

He asked me how do you know that what the bible says is true after all the translations they have from like many countries? Some meaning may have been lost!

Translations are made directly from Greek, Hebrew and Aramaic source texts based on thousands of ancient manuscripts...

Even though there are several manuscripts like over 24000, these copies agree with one another 99.5% of the time!

As for the 0.05%, it is of little consequence..it maybe because the spelling vary or words be transposed(change order), it doesn't affect the meaning...

Some may ask, if you transpose (change the order of the words) ain't you changing the meaning of the word already? Lets just say "Dog bites man" or "man bites Dog" it makes a huge difference in the English terms...

However, in Greek, one word functions as the subject of the sentence regardless of where it stands in the sequence...so amazing right?

As for archaeology, it cannot be used to prove God's written word to us, but, it can be used to see how accurate the Bible can be!

Sometimes historians do not even know that certain places or ppl existed..eg. the Gospel of John tells of Jesus healing a cripple next to the Pool of Bethesda and having 5 porticoes(walkways) leading to the pool...the scholars did not even think that the pool existed until archaeologists found it forty feet below the ground, complete with 5 porticoes!

The Bible has tremendous amount of historical detail, so not everything that is being mentioned, is being found. However, not one evidence that is being found contradicts with the Bible's records.

In the books of Acts, written by Luke, it names 32 countries, 94 cities and 9 islands without an error!

Some may claim that the Bible is full of contradictions. However, this isn't true!

The contradictions are so super small and little! They do not touch on any major event or artical of faith. eg. in Matthew :" This is Jesus, the King of Jews." in Mark :" The king of the Jews." in John :" Jesus of Nazareth, the king of the Jews." the wording is different...have apparent contradiction...however, they all mean the same!

Oh! there is another one...the bible said in matthew chap 12 verse 40 "For as Jonah was three days and three nights in the belly of a huge fish, so the Son of Man will be three days and three nights in the heart of the earth". In Mark chap 10 verse 34 " They will mock Him and spit on Him, and scourge Him and kill Him, and three days later He will rise again."

It is being said that Jesus will remain in the tomb for 3 days and 3 nights...then how come he died on fri but rose on sun? where got 3 days 3 nights?!

It was a Jewish figure of speech in Jesus' time to count any part of the day or night as a full day and night. So it is friday, saturday and sunday! still not convinced? Lets just say a person were to say " i spent all day shopping," It doesn't mean that the person spend 24 hours shopping right?

The Bible consists of facts, historians concur, archaeology concurs, four Gospel biographers in agreement, remarkable accuracy in translations and the preservation of document copies is also very remarkable! The Bible is not a story...it is the people stating the facts one by one as God ask them to write..

Christianity is not about having blind faith. It is faith based on facts and reality...

Since the Bible is proven to be true, why wait? Believe in God!

God loves you more than you can ever expect!

Trust in God (do you have it?)

Hey!! sorry ah...very long never post cause my mum don't allow me to come online...hmmm...haha=)
Oh!! do you rmb what i said in the previous post about trust, the one that Pastor prayed for me and God gave me the word "trust" through him to me?
Today, i am going to talk about trust!

On mon night, my family had some time for sharing session and for prayers.
My mum shared with us about the sermon on Sun...
It really inspired me alot because what she said was about trust! cool right?!
hmmm..anws, one of the story is that there is this book named as "HEY GOD!" if you all interested in it, can go and buy..
the author of this book wrote this book because he is inspired by his mother!
So, the story is that their family is kinda poor kind...then hor, his father is a very hot-tempered person...
One day, he brought back 5 friends and ask the mother to cook italian noodles (because they are italians) the mother went back into the kitchen and found out that she onli has one hand full of noodles and there is a need to feed like 11 ppl! (cause got the 5 ppl+herself+father+children)
And she has to cook cause if not she will get a scolding from her husband...
Because of her great amounts of trust in God, she knelt down and prayed...
Then, she stood up and boil the water and place the noodles in and stir....while stirring, she was singing songs and praising God...
Then, she layed out 11 plates...and fill the plates one by one with the noodles....
She managed to fill all the plates and still have extra noodles!!
God not only provides just the right amount that is sufficient, he also gives us extra!
Oh! and somemore sun night and mon afternoon when i am doing my quiet time, i read 2 stories, matthew chap 14 verse 13 to 21 (five thousand fed) and matthew chap 15 verse 32 to 39 (four thousand fed).
For all those who don't have a bible, these two verses states how God can use just 5 loaves and 2 fishes to feed 5 thousand ppl and 7 loaves and a few small fish to feed 4 thousand ppl! God miraculously multiplied the food to feed everyone!
Don't you think it is amazing?
My first reaction is "huh? really meh? sure not?" when i first hear the story
i doubted..
And this shows how much i trust in God...it is very difficult for me to trust in God because i am scared that i trust in God too much (like for him to do certain miracles) but he don't perform it, i will be very disappointed and lose faith...thats why i still struggle with the fact that i need to trust..
How about you?

The other story that my mother talked about is about this man, he is a christian and he is on the way to china to attend some seminar relating to God (all the other pastors going there also)..
It is like a one time opportunity thing...and he knows God wants him there...
one the way there, he was prepared to stay in quite a broken down place..he wasn't expecting a hotel or anything (because he was thinking that they wouldn't waste money on these but on helping others and spreading God's word)...but when he reach, the christians from that country, hosting this seminar thingy brought him to a hotel!
And the hotel is a 5 star one somemore!
when he look out of the window from his room, he can see the Whole city landscape! (he even brought the pic to show) he was staying on the seventy something storey..
When he came down, he ask one of the organiser like why let him stay in this kind of high class hotel?
Guess what the organiser say?
He said " we cannot mistreat God's people."
When i heared that, i was like "WO!"
God's ppl are very impt. They are more important than anyother human being on earth! So i am proud to be one too!
Anw, on his stay there, his wife called him and told him that his son had fever and he already had high fever for like 4 days!
If it is already so serious, i believe that any other human being would have rushed back to Singapore and take care of the son.
But, he trusted God. He knows that since God want him here, he will take good care of the family.
He prayed and kept his full attention on the seminar...
Until the 5th day, his wife called him and told him she sent his son to the hospital...
And he asked his wife to place him into the one bed kind of hospital room...(cause he is like a small little boy and will tend to make noise)
Later on, his wife realise that the hospital do not provide such a service..
She asked the doctors that if possible, placed him in a single bed room..
However, one of the doctors placed him in a special room..
When he got back to Singapore, he went to the hospital to visit his son..he realise that his son is in a room that is so unlike a one bedded room...it is so much nicer!
He ask one of the nurse what room is his son in, the nurse said he is in a suite!
He got shocked cause one night in the suite costs 460 dollars!
He thought to himself "wah, i stay in luxury hotel, my son also must stay in luxury hospital, somemore mine is sponsered"
He didn't blame his wife because it is not easy to handle so many things on her own..
Thank God his son only need to stay for a night..
However, he was bugged by the cost he had to pay...but he placed his trust in the Lord and know that he will settle everything for him..
And really, God settled it!
How?
His wife's company got some medical claim that she can collect for herself as well as for her children's hospitalisation fees...(not all companies have such a previlage)..
She asked the company like how much can she claim for her child like maximum,
they said 460 dollars exactly!
So cool right?

I am sure there are many stories that many others have and i also have somemore just that i cannot really rmb...
All in all, as long as you place your trust in God, like a full kind of trust, he will take care of everything...
Trust is not something that you want then you will get..it is something that you need to pray for and ask the Holy Spirit to help you have trust and not to doubt..
As long as one have trust, i am sure that one will not fear nor worry as you will know that God will take care of everything..

GOD BLESS YOU!!

The need for Holy Spirit

You know, for today's service, Pastor kuang ming's sermon was about the Holy spirit...
And what i wanna share with you is what happen and what is in my mind throughout the service..

You know, i was like really tired out from the chalet and also having to run to the church (cause i scared i miss the worship, but thankfully i didn't so i was really thanking God! cause i prayed really hard and i love worship=))
So no offence but i almost fall asleep when the sermon was about to end...
This is not the point...i dunno why i talk about this also..haha=)

Anw, his sermon was also a good one!
It was about the need and yearning for the Holy Spirit...
The Holy spirit is a like a little helper that provides you with Help in everything that you do, everything that you say and stuff..
Anyone can have the Holy Spirit! Anyone! As long as you really want it and ask for it!
And we should really pray very hard for it cause it is really impt!
Why impt?
We christians believe that when we recieve Christ into our hearts, we already have the Holy Spirit..
Because Pastor about being able to feel the Holy Spirit. Do you feel the Holy Spirit now, everyday in your life or just a few years back when you recieve the gift of tongues?
You have to know that we believe in a LIVING God, not one that is LIVING in the PAST but DEAD in the NOW!

Don't you think life will be so much easier if you are like intouch with the Holy Spirit?
When you share and spread the word by many many methods (including the pen and paper method), many of the times without the help of the Holy Spirit but by just merely your own wisdom, you fail?

I come to realise that i have been sharing so so many of God's word to my friends and desperately trying to save them...many of the times, i do it without the Holy Spirit, but by my own strength..i fail to seek God's will and the help of the Holy Spirit to help me...thats why i haven gotten any successes...

God reminded me about my prayer. I keep on asking God why don't you want to save those I love? Why can't you at least let me have 1 success to give me this extra boost and confidence? What have i done wrong by sharing the gospel to as many as possible?

Now, God answered my prayer and i am willing to pray and wait on the Holy Spirit to instruct and help me..

I asked Elo...how do you know whether the Holy Spirit is helping you?
She told me that lets just say when you share the gospel, you may find yourself saying things that you yourself do not expect yourself to say...
She also said that when you are filled with the Holy Spirit, God will open your eyes to see things that others may not see...(it may not be very deep stuff. It may be just a rainbow behind a car or any other physical stuff that speaks to you)
When you are filled with the Holy Spirit, you can do things that you never thought you could do...if you are willing to obey and listen to it, Lives will be saved..and it is so much better than just using your own wisdom..

After the whole sermon, it is time for altar call...
He ask...who is hungry and thirsty for more of God, more of the Holy Spirit? Who is not satisfied and happy with the state they are in now? Who wants more and wants a deeper relationship with the Holy Spirit, come to the altar when the worship team sing the next song so that we can pray for you...
There is a great prompting in my heart..i was thinking, that is me..i need more of the Holy Spirit..i was hesitant and slightly afraid to go up...
As the song continued, the altar only had a few ppl...very little went up...
Should i go up? i struggled on the inside...also i asked myself...shouldn't all Christians thrist and hunger for God? Shouldn't like everyone go up? why no one is going up?
In the mist of all these, Pastor Cuixian came to the stage and asked everyone to go to the altar..she says that everyone should thirst and hunger for God..not to wait upon your friends..i decided strongly that i should go...(but in the end everyone went up la)

I was standing quite at the back and was praying and singing...i look at Pastor kuang ming..he was praying for the ppl infront...i thought "i am so at the back, i don't think he will come here and pray for me one la...so nevermind lor.."
When it was about to end, had to pray for the P6s...and of course i prayed...
After i was done, i just continued singing and look at the screen..until i saw Pastor Kuang Ming walk over...he came in front of me and said "let me pray for you"
I was kinda shocked but at the same time happy=)
He held my hands and brought it up to the Lord...he said "i sense that God is trying to tell you trust in him...trust in him"
Trust in him...hmmm..i don't trust in him enough?
Maybe God is trying to tell me to trust that he will save my friends?
Delete all my fears?
I have no idea..but i am sure that God will reveal it to me in the days to come=)

Many always say "ai ya! its God's will"
They (including me) many of the times think that things that happen in our life is God's will..
But, do we actually understand and look into what is God's will?
We use God's will so easily that we fail to seek what is actually his will!

Oh! there is one thing that hurt my heart...
I was playing game at fareast with my church bros and sis...
Then someone mentioned about catholics...
I started to be very interested in that topic because i was eager to know more..and to take this opportunity to clear some of my doubts...cause CJ got alot of catholics and tiffany and i also talk about religion and stuff to the catholics...
There was once, one of my catholic friend rozanne, she say that christians are protestants..and why are they called that? because they protest..
So i rmb that doubt..i asked that someone...more about it..
maybe because of one moment of excitedness, i asked the question too rashly or something..i dunno..
one of my church friend said that wah! nicole always like that one leh...(something like) always talk about religion then very (i forgot what was the word that the person used)...
Anws, it was not a very good comment....and it is definately not what i would expect my church friend to say...
My other church friend said after her "why? it is a good thing what"
i just kept quiet...
i haven't got the answer to my question yet..and i don't wish to probe on further...
i dunno..i just got really hurt by the comment...cause it was a comment that my non-christian friends will say (something like the previous post about swearing and forgiveness)
Maybe being overly enthu was wrong? No idea...

GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS!