Monday, December 15, 2008

Crossing the road

Oh! There was one incident that i experienced not long ago...
I was like going home crossing the road that crosses from Bukit Batok MRT to the interchange...

It was like a super short and small road...
I was walking to it to wait for it to turn green before i can cross, loads of people just came rushing and hitting against me as they cross the road with the red man...it was like a flow kind of thing. I seemed to be dragged by them just like a force pulling me over...it is like any normal person will just follow the flow kind of thing...

But, I stood there with everyone passing by me and hitting against me...
Until there is green man then I cross...

I had a thought going through my mind...

Are we Christians going to let the flow of the world carry us through just like that? Sinning against God and following what the world do, not being a point of difference, crossing the road at the wrong time (going into hell) OR are we going to stand for doing the right thing and standing for God no matter what and wait patiently and hold on till the very end.

Even though temptations may hit us and push us, are we going to stand firm and wait for the green man to appear to indicate us to cross over to the kingdom of God?

God loves you!

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Leading worship

Hey hey!! couldn't come online the past few days cause i always come back late...hahhaa=)
Anyways..today i had choir prac at G2 then leading worship at G1 for children's church (CC) then Choir combined prac at G2 again!
Really had a super busy day travelling around...
Oh! anws, i wanna talk about the part whereby i lead worship at G1 for CC..

Today, i lead worship at CC...it was a terrible one...actually i expected it before i lead..
For all those who don't know, leading worship here means to stand infront, holding the mic...etc..
Do you know why i expected it?
Cause previously i led before for the P5s and P6s for 3 services and i totally screwed it up...=(
i got like leaders in the church saying that i can do better and saying that this time it is not very good previously...etc..
Actually, i would prefer them not to say anything...cause i already knew i screwed up...they made me feel worst..
It was never easy leading worship...we had to use hand gestures to signal the musician like when to sing the chorus, verse and bridge...and we have to know when to come in with thee music to sing and we have to pray in between songs and do the transitions..etc..with fear!
It was never easy...and the leaders in church always have such high expectations of me being a leader and being able to lead..they never considered that it was my first time previously...

This is like my first time leading worship for the P1s to P6s...a larger group..
And as usual i was scared...
The first two songs is i choose one...it is amazing God and with Christ in the vessel..they are action songs...
The last two are everyday and from the inside out..chosen by eloise(my loved one!)
the first two songs were ok...but when it came to the third and fourth song, everything went bad...i couldn't go with the pianist (abigail)...and the children, only a few were singing...i was scared...i screamed for God's help...
After the whole thing, i was just in a state of shock and sadness...
i told eloise, elo, i don't think i am meant to lead worship...i don't have a gift in this area at all...i wanna give up...i don't think that i am able to lead worship..and my voice sucks=(" actually i expected it la...
eloise say,"no! God give you a nice voice for a reason! and your gift is here! the worst thing is to give up on yourself and to have self fulfilling prophesy!"
Oh! i haven tell you all, cause my dream is to become a christian singer in future....so i was real sad...

After that, while i was still feeling real discouraged and sad, while i was watching some christmas movie in the children's church ministry, the Holy spirit spoke to me....
i realise that i shouldn't give up just like that...cause maybe God is preparing me to lead in future...thats why he is placing so many opportunities right infront of me now to let me practice, fail and learn...when i fail i learn...i should thank God that he let me fail in church, in front of a small no. of people...i dunno what the future has install for me...but what i am sure is that God will take care of it!"
A song came into my mind...the song is"voice of truth"
one part of the lyrics goes...."To step out of my comfort zone, to the realm of the unknown where Jesus is, and he is holding his hand. But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me, reminding me of all the times i tried before and failed. The waves at keep on telling me, time and time again, Boy, you'll never win!.....But the voice of truth, tells me a different story..."

As long as you look to God in everything you do and not focus on the times you have failed, but the on times you have succeeded, i am sure God will allow you to succeed oneday!
Do not focus on whats other's comments are on you, but focus on what God has to say to you...
As long as you do that, even the hardest wind, can never blow you away...
Look at the future and not what you might be facing now!
Rmb to read his word daily! and God will speak to you!
Don't let satan win!! yeah!!
Jia you!

God bless!!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Self-centredness

I was just helping my sister to search for something online when i chanced upon a website...
There was a video that i found it was quite interesting...

There was a sermon...
And the sermon was on self-centeredness!
He say that whenever something goes terribly wrong, we blame it on Satan...
Satan is like our enemy and we place all the blame on him...
we may think that Satan is our greatest enemy. The enemy of all mankind...
However, what we do not realize is that our greatest enemy is not Satan. It is our self-centeredness!
God sent Jesus down to die on the cross for us to free us from the self-centredness present within us...
To not focus on ourselves but to focus on the world and the people around us...

As you see several natural or man-made disasters happening around the world...
earthquake, tsunami, floods, riots, terrorists..etc..and many lives are being lost just like that...thousands and millions lives are gone so quickly, entering into hell...
When is the last time that you feel sad and prayed for them...when is the last time that you moan and fast for this matter...when is the last time you sat down with your family and pray?


There was this website that may answer some of your questions about religion and christianity..i think it is real cool!
so you all should go and check it out! yeah!
http://www.gotquestions.org/questions_salvation.html

God Bless you!

worshipper VS complainer

Today, i would like to talk about the sermon that was being said last sun...

There are two kinds of people on the earth...
1) worshipper
2) complainer

What is considered as being a worshipper?
It is when even in the worst circumstances, you will turn your eyes upon God and look into his way, not on yourself..
It is when you thank God for everything and in whatever situation that you face...
An example is that when God's people are trapped within the cell like the inner dungeons where all the human wastes are, just because they did good, as said in the bible. Instead of complaining and acting out the way that any other normal human beings will, they sing praises, worship God and thank him!
Don't you think it is amazing?

How about a complainer?
it is when even if you are in the best situations, you can always find fault and something bad to complain about...
the pastor gave an example..
He say that when he got his O lvl results, he got a total of 12 points after the minus...
He was real happy and thank God for it!
All his other friends including all the girls got like 6 and 7 points before the minus...
They plan to go to all the top schools in Singapore...
There was one particular friend, he had 8 points (which is very good already!).
However, he complained "ai ya! how come i get an A2 for chemistry! if not i can get 7 points ler!"

After he said this, i had a thought in my mind...
i recalled about the times when i went overseas with my classmates...
even though we stayed in like a not so bad hotel, they still complained, just because it is not up to their expectations...
Do you know that an average Singaporean complain at least 3 times a day? (i think i said it before)
Are you guilty of it?

He said that A human's mind can turn heaven into hell or hell into heaven.

You may ask, how do i become a worhipper then?
It is when you close your eyes and zoom out...zoom out to see the larger picture...zoom out to see how fortunate you are as compared to others and not focus on the tiny little details that causes you to complain...

There are several things that you can plan and schedule...
like mon you are going to do what, tues do what, wed do what...etc.
However, there is one thing that you cannot plan.
And that is trails from God..
you cannot say...ok, i am free on thurs like this time, so God you can test me here, at this timing...
God can place situations in your life to test whether you are a worshipper or a complainer.
So you must always be prepared...
But there is one thing that i wanna tell you...
is that people are watching...
your friends, family members are watching how you react to certain situations...
Are you ready?

We always talk about the need to follow Jesus...follow the ways of him...
The story about Jesus multiplying 5 loaves and 2 fishes to feed the 5 thousand ppl, Jesus thank God for the food and it increased in numbers..
Thanking God unleashes supernatural powers and it is also the key to a miracle..

There are 4 kinds of prayer
1) Mercy
2) Petition-request for help
3) intercession-when you interceed for someone else
4) Thanksgiving
The last one unlocks the presence of God..
When you thank God, it unleashes miraculous powers into your life!
Always always look towards God in every situation you are in, and you will find joy!

Are you going to be a typical Singaporean, always complaining?
or a worshipper? someone that is different.
Jia you!

God loves you!

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Quiet time!

Hello! i just came back from church leader's retreat!!!
yeah! it was fun! the second day only...
However, i recieve several problems in relationships as well as me being a leader....
Pray that i will not give up while facing all these emotional problems, but to grow from it!
For now, i just feel like the whole world is tumbling over me...i didn't realise that i have so many expectations to meet, so many stresses...even in church...i thought church is suppose to be a place of taking a break from the outside world, just to worship God...just feel like giving up and taking a break from church and from serving God...i just feel terrible on the inside...

Anyways, today i wanna talk about quiet time.
Quiet time is something that my church always emphasize on and stressing on the importance of quiet time...
For all those who do not know what is quiet time, it is a time whereby you meditate on God's word as you read the bible or any other christian material...
It is a time being placed aside for God and God only...to communicate with God and to seek for God's will in your life...
It is a time of focus on God...
what i realise is that there are so many thousand things going on in our lives that we always complain that time is not enough...
So, even i as a christian may sometimes not do my quiet time cause i spend my time doing something else like watching tv, using the com...then by the time i wanna do quiet time, i already lose the focus and it gets too tiring and sleepy for me to do it already..

There was once recently, i asked Jondave from like young adults ministry whether he got do qt annot, the answer that he gave me was that he didn't really do much cause he got several tests this week...
i told him how important qt is regarding one's spiritual walk with God and to bond with him...
telling him that if your really love God, just like if you love someone, you would want to talk to the person like everyday...
morever, it is like taking like 10 to 15 min of your time like 24 hours for God!

He taught me something new...
He say that doing qt is just like a secondary factor...it is not as impt as living out your life as a christian..
He asked me,' How are you assured of your salvation?'
And said that ' not all who call Jesus as lord will enter the kingdom of God.'
I answered...it is when you take up the cross and follow Jesus..it is when you let God's word to master you and to really live out a Godly life!
he say that qt is suppose to be part of our life as a christian...
And that, you are actually doing qt when you spend time with God...it can be on the bus reading the bible and praying, when you are with your friends and talking to God...etc. Anywhere at any time, when you worship God...
God deserves more than just 10 to 15 min of your time...
If you think it this way, you wouldn't be bounded with the question of whether you have done the 15 min of qt cause qt is actually limitless!!
Doing qt is good...if you can do then it is better...but spending that 15 min of your time with God is not the main focus...

I started to think about it and accept the fact that qt is not as important as i think it is...
I told this to my best friend leng shan...
Her opinion is that she do not want to feel so comfortable...
Lets just say you just pray and talk to God when you are free...or when you just think of him like on the bus or even walking back home....she wants to get out of her comfort zone to serve God...

I also told this to cheryl, my senior cum friend from church..
I told her this during the church leader's retreat..
Her reply was that qt is something that is really impt!
why?
she say that qt is a time whereby you really sit down and meditate on God's word and listen to what he has to say to you...
Not whether you think about him annot...
It is a time that you schedule in your day specially for him..cause he is special..
It is a time of focus whereby you step out of your comfort zone for him...
cause it is difficult to focus like on the bus or when you are with your friends even though you may be praying...
Morever, if you really love God, you would want to do something for him..
Since we are children of God, and we take Jesus as our example to lead our lives according to, we should follow his way of praying and talking to God...
Going to a quiet place without anyone to look at you doing it, close the door and do it...
It is a special time that you and God share...only you and God...

So, rmb to do your quiet time.
Just start out with like 10 min of your time...
I am sure that as you grow in God, the time spent with God will be lengthened as one hunger and thirst for more of God's word...
Jia you!!!

God Bless you!!

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Just a thought to share about faith and trust

I was reading this verse while doing quiet time...
mark chap 4 verse 38 to 40 "Jesus Himself was in the stern, asleep on the cushion; and they woke Him and said to Him, 'Teacher, do You not care that we are perishing?' And He got up and rebuked the wind and said to the sea, 'Hush, be still." And the wind died down and it became perfectly calm. And he said to them, 'Why are you afraid? Do you still have no faith?"

I recalled there was once, i brought a friend to church....he is a non-christian..
Before and throughout the whole service, i was so so worried...i was so worried that God will not touch his heart and open it...i was so worried that he will not come again...i was worried that he will feel uncomfortable in church..
I was worried about this and that...so so many worries!

My best friend Leng Shan told me to place everything into God's hands and to trust in him...
i said i did! but i just stop myself from worrying!
i told her it is just like you going into an exam...you tell yourself to place everything in God hands and tell yourself not to fear cause God is here...
But, you will just fear de...

i realised through this verse that if one really have the faith and the trust to believe that God can do anything and everything, you wouldn't be scared at all...cause you are placed in good hands...
It is just like if you really trust that someone to do something for you and that that person will do it for you de kind, you wouldn't be worrying that that person won't do it for you right?
You will be able to focus fully on doing other things..

I can only just keep praying and asking God for patience with me that he can help me to grow the trust in him...and really have total faith in him...

God bless you!!

Sin is pleasurable

Hello! I am back from mawai!!
I can only tell you it is an eco trip and it is both fun but not fun at the same time!!
For more information, you only can get it from me!
Oh! God has been helping me throughout this trip and made it enjoyable and fun for me...
i found out how amazing God can be from creating all the stars in the universe with several other solar systems on the outside and about why the stars twinkle from Gabriel (a guy from my group)...
Since it is an eco camp, we had to be one with nature and it had made me realise how every single root of a tree is important and how great and mazing my God is in creating the seas, rivers and insects...i love God!!

Anws, what i want to talk about today is about Sin...
What kind of sin you may ask?
It is the knowledge that the thing you are doing is wrong, but still purposely do it...
I was with a group of friends on the way a shopping centre in malaysia like on the bus...
They started talking about pirated cds..
They said that they wanted to buy and what shows they wanted to watch and to buy...
In the midst, there was my friend (A), a christian...and she was those kind on fire for God kind...
I told them said that "eh, don't buy pirated cds la! my mother even wanted to throw away all the pirated cds..."
the reply that i got from her (A) was "she rich mah..."
My other friend (B) said "why cannot?"
i said "cause it is wrong to buy pirated cds."
my other friend (B) said "wah...you very guai leh.."
(A) said "but why waste money on such an expensive cd then watch already then throw away? my mother and i always buy de..almost all the cds in my house are all pirated"
All my other friends agreed...
i repeated myself again to not buy pirated cds cause it is wrong....but nobody listened...
I thought friend (A) will help me like at least give me some support that this is a wrong thing to do...
The sermon of pastor ronald came into my mind...
i decided to just cut myself out of the convo and stopped talking...just looking out of the window of a moving bus..
Why did she support sin? when i already made it so clear that it is a wrong thing to do?
i was very disappointed in her at that point of time...really...
What to do?
Sin is pleasurable....sin is pleasurable..
we are made to enjoy sinning...
when we sin, we feel really pleased and happy..
But God gave all christians the Holy Spirit to fight against sin to remind us that what we are doing is wrong...
This, is the difference between a non-christian and a true christian..

It is not only this kind of sin, there are so many so many sins in this world...even the choice of words we use...even though we know that saying all these things are wrong, we still do it...
Why?
simply because this world supports sin!

what is feel is that if you sin without knowing that what you are doing is wrong, it is still not as bad and knowing that you are sinning but can't help doing it...
But what i know is, me, being a christian, is suppose to shine for God's name! knowing that when others see me, they will know that i am leading a Godly life and shine for God's glory...to show the world the truth..and the right thing to do...with the help of the holy spirit!
i want to be the point of difference!
Jia you to everyone!

God bless you