Servant? God? huh? no link.

I wanna blog something first before i go for church retret next week!! yay!!
Yupps=)
You know i went for judo camp for 1 day today (supposed to be 3 days but i got things on)..but today was the most intensive...i came for training from 9am to 8.30 pm...
during the training camp i really felt like i was going to die anytime..i was like gasping for air and screaming to God for help..
This is the first judo prac that i cried so so much..over and over again..(not that i want to) but i shan't go into the details..
What i wanna talk about today is the lessons and things that i learnt from this whole day as the Holy spirit speaks to me..

Because we were having lunch at the canteen and i was like sitting with the other seniors (all guys) and the girl coach (who takes care of this whole camp) and after lunch, we stayed at the table just to talk to the seniors and stuff...
Therefore, there were only me and my partner (xing yun) who were the only j2s left there because the rest went up to the classroom to rest..
And the other male coach told me and xy to clear all the rubbish because we were the only ones left..i was like huh?
the male coach said "unless you wanna ask the seniors and the female coach along to clear the rubbish also."
The seniors's reply was, "no no you all should go and clear."
I said," but we clear together issn't it better cause then we will have unity!"
they didn't want and the male coach added on saying, "but there is only 1 big trash bag for you to clear only"
so, at the end, my and xy had to clear it..

I understand that they may want us to toughen up and be responsible and stuff...
But i was really reminded of Jesus Christ..
Ask you, who in the right mind will be willing to step down to a position so much lower than the position that you are presently in?
Lets say for example...would a director of a company or a ceo be willing to suffer a lack of money and become a begger on the streets?
No one in the right mind will do that right?
It is just like a seniors..they are also unwilling to step down from their senior status to help us..

However, there is one person that loves us so so much that he would even do such a foolish act of just stepping down..
And it is not just stepping down to a lower position, but to a lower of the lowest position..
Jesus christ who is the king in heaven, so big and majestic, so boundless, so amazing and had so many angels serving Him and stuff, why would He want to come down to this earth and to limit Himself as a small, fragile human being (somemore, human beings are part of His creation)...
I mean like, if it was me, i would want to reign over everything what..

And Jesus didn't just come down as a human being on earth to enjoy His life and stuff, He came down to endure all the sufferings of mankind. He came to get humiliated by His own creation, laughed at, hit, tortured physically like real badly just for us!
Shouldn't we repay back the amount of love He has for us?

There was once during cell, someone commented, "But Jesus is God and He knows that He will rise from the dead like after 3 days, so it is kinda unfair don't you think?"
Su hui jie (one of the leaders) told us, "it wasn't even fair for Him to come down to suffer even for 1 day and get tortured by us. was it even fair?"

When i was studying for GP midyears and i read about death penalty and stuff...there was one article that says, "it is not morally right for anyone to stand in for a guilty person even though she/he is willing to do it."
Jesus christ is willing to do it, He carried the sins of all of the world just to provide a way of salvation for us!" Isn't it amazing?

There was another thing that i thought about during the training..
because during the training, i saw the seniors and stuff just sitting around...and what some of them did was that they just tell us.."eh! hurry up leh!, do faster, turn in more!, do properly leh!"
These are some of the comments that they made..and we were all super duper shag like really going to die and in pain kind of feeling..
people started telling me about how one of the seniors think it was so easy to do the pt in the morn because they didn't do what my other cca members did early in the morn ( i wasn't there)

This brought me to think about things like....if they have never been through it, how would they know?
They think it is so easy but it is actually so tiring and difficult, not that we didn't put in effort and stuff in doing it..
it is so easy for them to make all the comments when they ain't the ones suffering and training..
If those who train with us and give the comments then i have got nothing to say la..but..
I started to think about God..
think about how God knows how we are feeling exactly, and the several sufferings we face in life because He has been through it?
Because He has came down to earth to suffer in a more extreme manner gives Him the right to tell us what to do and not to do..
He also has the authority to do so because He created us!

But, he didn't exert His authority over us.
He treated us with love that no other human beings could have..
Just like how many other seniors and the guy coach cared for our welfare (which is really very touching especially in the times of need), God cared for us much much more^^

We only have to respond to this love that is free and available...(it really takes 2 hands to clap)
Are you willing to accept this love that He has for you?
Are you willing to run back to the cross?

GOd loves you!