Alot of things have happened to me the past few days....but thank God it all started during the hols...i think if it happens during my school time, i may just break down...
Sometimes i do wish that the world was just black and white...everything so clear with no grey areas...
Sometimes i just don't understand how people can think so so much and so complex while i just cannot get into their deep thinking world..
Sometimes, i just wish i will never grow up and remain as a child...
I really do admire children...they can be so free, they are simple minded and they potray themselves to others just they way they are...just the way they are created..
If they are happy, they laugh...
If they are angry, they will show you that they are angry..
If they are sad, they cry...
Some of the basic emotions that God gave to us becomes hidden as we grow up..
What is so good about growing up?
The adult world is too complicated for me to handle and understand..it just overwealmes me...
Just like a shark that is going to swallow me...and i am trying my best to swim, trying my best to get away...but the shark is just too fast....
I have to be accountable to so many other ppl...i cannot behave like a child anymore..i cannot become my true self...i have to change because my age is on the rise...
i am no longer the happy pri school kid that i used to be...i need to grow up...i need to be mature...
Alot of people tell me so many different things about being mature...how can i ever be one? i am afraid that if i act mature, the true side of me will be gone forever...
somebody told me that changes are good...and we are bound to change...
is it really good? do i need to change to please others?
There was a friend of mine whom tried to change and change and change just to please others and to have more friends...until, he lost his true self...
I always tell him that just behave like yourself, your true self..because God made you just the way you are! and there is no need to please others...just to please God..
I dunno what to do..
i feel lost...like i am in a jungle with no way out...
i feel like running away and to live like the life i had before...
In the bus just now, i was wondering...
If i was dead, who are those friends who will cry...
Who are those who will weep..
Who are those who will be so sad because i leave them...
Out of the so many friends that i have, i realised that there are only a few...
I don't have many True friends...alot of them are in pretence...
What is deemed to be true by me seems to fade away as time passes...
True friends are friends that are there when you needed help..
They are there when you need a listening ear..
They are just there to comfort and encourage you in times of need and helplessness...
Even when you forget about them, they will still care for you and are always on a constant lookout for you...
They are not their just to share your joy, but also your pain..
Not many are like that...as we grow up, i find it harder and harder to find true friends...
Alot of them just come and go...
I wanna share with you all the one most important and bestest friend that one can ever have! and that is, God...
He fulfils every single criteria and characteristic that a true friend can ever have!
Even if at times, one may forget about this friend, He is always there...never giving up on this friendship that He wants to have with you..
He is the only one that is able to accept everything of you, no matter how screwed up your life is...
He is, my bestest friend.
God Bless you!
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hope everything is okay n u r feeling alrite now eh? just be yourself n dun live to others perceptions. like what u said abt friendships, it's been a similar struggle that i've gone thru and learning to handle it adequately,and also knowing that no matter what God is still the bestest friend afterall :) Great blog post man!
hihiz nicoleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...haha i read ur post le after finishing the 'project' xD
hmmm, interestingly i had the same thought as well recently even today while waiting for u all, i was talking to kirb about the same topic...but i wanna say tat; acting grown up is not an obligation, its a choice. the same thought tat hit u hit me as well, and i made the choice to be hu i am...myself, and i never regretted it a single bit...
wad u said is true, ppl tell us many things about maturity, but if we have to discard our true-selves in order to be mature, then i rather not be mature at all. it would be like living a lie...and trust me, u do not wanna even TRY to live a lie
do not be swayed by wad others say, wad nathanael said is really true =) everybody prefers anybody the way they are...its different ppl tat makes the world go round, not money =D.
wow, im amazed at the similarity of thoughts tat we have...i used to tink about hu will be affected when i die too xD and then i would tink about my Will and hu should i pass all my stuff to whom LOL, but either ways dont worry, i would be at ur funeral crying buckets enough to extinguish the fires in the crematorium LOL...
hmmm its 2.30am and i jus wanna round this off, be urself, really...there are definately ways to deal with ppl hu wants u to act grown up. u are unique in ur own special way, all of us are =) anyways i am really happy with the way u are, and i wouldnt wan to have it any other way =DDD
hope u'll feel better after reading this =))) gd nite sweet dreams and may the greatest fren of all, God, bless u as always!!
btw my comment had 313 words in it xDDDDD HHAHA
BTW, there is a clear difference between 'acting mature/grown up' and actually being mature.
As humans, we have to grow up eventually. We cannot remain in the child-mental-state when we are actually already grown up. You cannot expect everyone to treat you as a child when you are clearly grown up already.
Why you have to accountable is because you are now a leader, not a child.
You do not have to act mature. You have to learn to act your age and be an example as a leader. Who says being mature means you lose the true side of yourself. Look at Suhui jie for instance; she is mature, with wisdom beyond her years, yet she can still be childlike and identify with youth and young people who are so many years younger.
Why? Because she can balance being mature and being herself. Being mature does not take over your personality. It adds on to it.
haha! wow .. 2 different prespectives. both have interesting points. however, both of the comments lack the 1 thing that is the most important .. which is God .. seek him about any problems that you have including this one .. although people are telling u to change and not to change .. it doesnt matter .. i am sure God will make a way out of this (: !
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