Success and light

It has been a long time since i ever blogged because this whole week i am not really inspired and i just feel that my passion to share to people about christ, to do street e has slowly died down...
Today, i just want to share about what was being taught in my mini retreat amongst the cj prayer group whereby we went to Jasmine's house (which is at thomson there!)-so far...anws, we went to her house from about 6 plus to about 10 plus!!
We had dinner (ta baoed KFC) then shared about stuff and our feelings towards the school evangelism that we did before going her house..
Also, we had worship and somebody from YFC (youth for christ) is invited to come speak to us...she taught us a lesson which i wanna share with you all today!! cause i feel that it was really good^^

Anws, i wanna bring you all back to last sun..
Because our church had a street e event and leng shan invited me to join in to evangelise to the people at tiong baru...
Usually i will be very enthu and really go ahead with it de..
But at the end, i said i didn't want it..
Why? i was afraid of rejections..and because God didn't show me any "success" in sharing the gospel or allowing anyone that i shared to get saved, be it friends or family members, i was kinda drained out and disappointed...hope of salvation don't really seem to be there because i don't see God working amongst the people that i love..

So, anws, i was just telling grace and leng shan last sun about how sad and disappointed i was feeling because i just wanna see 1 success, i just want God to show me that salvation actually occurs amongst my loved ones...i just want 1 salvation..but God just don't give me any despite all my prayers and stuff..
So, i was feeling kinda helpless and the 'whatever lor, nvm' feeling..
And today, God answered my problems through the lesson taught.

She talked about the Ezekiel found in the Bible..
And if you got your Bible, i would encourage you to read chapter 2 and 3.
There are some things that i want to focus on..
chapter 2 verse 3 to 5, "Son of man,' he said, 'I am sending you to the nation of Israel, a rebellious nation that has rebelled against me to this very day. They are stubborn and hard-hearted people. But i am sending you to say to them, 'This is that the Sovereign Lord says!' And whether they listen or refuse to listen-for remember, they are rebels...."

These verses show that God is sending Ezekiel to hard ground..to people who are stubborn and hard-hearted.
In chapter 3 verses 7, it is said again that "But the people of Israel won't listen to you anymore than they listen to me! For the whole lot of them are hard-hearted and stubborn."
Since it is repeated twice, it shows that it is important.

Ask you, lets just say you do street e or school e, then before hand you already know who will listen to you and who will not...lets just say you can see a label above their head..
Who will you share to?
Will you share to the people whom when you share about God's word they will not listen in the first place?

Ezekiel faced several challenges and difficulties while sharing the gospel...
He had to become this "mad man" (paul also--but paul said, if i are to be mad about God, then let it be) he had to wrap himself up and lie on one side of his body in the town square (something like city hall) for many days and then turn over the other side for many more days...he also had to dig a hole underneath the gate with all his barang barang to show the people that this will be the days in future for them when the people of babylon (people who are very cruel-how they chain the people up is to pierce a spear through the palm of one person to the other and to the other) even though he is able to walk through the door..people think he was mad..
But imagine the amount of humiliation and great lengths that he had to go to reach out to the people...

At the end, he didn't even taste success...
Success in the way whereby the israelites that he tried to share to, non of them are salvaged because at the end, the people of babylon came and capture all of them away..
But, God sees him as being successful...
In what way?
he follows God and is obedient to Him through everything..
He holds on to the promises and follow and do what God wants him to do..
The most important thing that he is deemed successful is that he walked strongly with God and trusted Him...
God will still say to him one day,"Well done, good and faithful servant."

There is one thing that one other prayer group member, marcus, shared later on..
He asked us, "what is the difference between sheep and goat? and why are we referred to as sheeps rather than goats as said in the Bible?"
"When the mama sheep jumps, the other small baby sheeps also jumps and follow the mama sheep even though they do not know what is going on and what is going to happen. they just follow. As for the goat, they are abit smarter...when the mama goat jumps, the others will stop and think whether to jump or not...and they will not follow.."
It is just like how we as children of God...as long as we stay obedient and trust and follow Him, we will not be left behind...just like how the mama sheep and goat jumps further and further away, it is up to us whether we would want to follow? or just think that we are very smart and be left behind..

It is also said in Ezekiel chapt 3 verse 9, "I have made your forehead as hard as the hardest rock! So don't be afraid of them or fear theur angry looks, even though they are rebels."
It shows that even though the people that we shared the gospel to, especially in my school, many of them have heard the gospel like alot of times..they got the head knowledge, but their hearts are hardened and may not even want to listen.
But God promises us that He will make our forehead even harder than the hardest heart!
So, we shouldn't fear about anything but really go forward and share the gospel!

In ezekiel chapt 3 verse 1-2, "The voice said to me, "Son of man, eat what i am giving you-eat this scroll!Then go give its message to the people of Israel. So i opened my mouth, and he fed me the scroll."
When i first read this verse, i was like huh? eat the scroll? why God want him to eat it?
She explained that God not only want Ezekiel (representing us) to only have the head knowledge to teach the people but to 'eat' means to allow whatever that we teach and share to others, we ourselves must also do it. Instead of mastering the word, we must let the word master us.
We must live out our lives as christians, as good representatives of the children of God.

Actually i got somemore things to share with you all de..but i think it is like too long...so yar lor..you can ask me personally!! hahaha^^

To end off, i would like to encourage you all to continue doing God's work and purpose for us to be on this earth, which is to evangelise.
We are supposed to be light and salt of the earth..whether it is in school, in class, in our family and stuff...
If we, the only light source do not shine brightly for God, who will? (instead, there will be darkness)

God bless you!