A Simple Concept

It has been a long time since i ever written my blog..cause i abit lazy to type. heh.
But anws, i have been thinking about alot of things regarding Christianity. And one of the incidences that i truely remember and really be thankful about is what a friend actually did for me.
This friend, i guess some of you all know, is joshua ng zi ern.

It happened quite some time ago whereby our church organised an event called "live recording of the church album, more like you" and it was at 7pm if i am not wrong.
I remember vividly that i had church service in the morning, then we gave out food to the old folks to bless them and then i rushed to orchard to catch a movie "yi man" with my SAJC clique.
But the movie started at 3 plus and ended at 5 plus.
And due to my lack of ability to judge the actual amount of time that i have left, i queued up with my friends at astons until 6 oclock then i realised that i got to walk to the mrt station and take it all the way to gombak to meet another friend, joseph for dinner before the event.
so i chiong and ran, realising that i don't have time for dinner!
I didn't want to cause joseph who was there early to be late so i asked him to go for the event.

Why did i keep on talking about dinner?
Because i was starving, really starving.
For the whole day, i havent had breakfast, lunch was just a cold apple crumble that my SAJC friends bought from the cinema because i really cannot ta han. (i very grateful that i got like at least something to hold my stomach, thx friends!)
so basically, i was starving.
If people know me well, when it comes to food, i cannot not have it. I just love to eat!
But not having anything proper to eat for the whole day brought me to sianess, tiredness and even to tears.
I went for the event with my heavy heart and a very empty stomach.
Sat down alone, i didn't want to find my friends, just watching the live recording.

As i was walking into church, i met joshua who was urshering and passed by me..
It was very coincidental that i met him as i walked into the church building.
He talked to me awhile and asked me, "how come you look so tired and sian?"
I just gave a pass remark, i am hungry and walked away to the second level.

As i sat there alone, he came into the sanctuary and sat next to me, asking me how am i..
I was already tearing and i told him about the whole day i had not much food.
He insisted that i should go and eat and brought me downstairs giving me his urshering food.(actually not supposed to de)
At that point of time, i was really very touched.
It was like food from heaven!
Even though it was just fried rice, i tasted so so good.
Amazing.
Joshua was like my savior then.
Just felt that it was a divine intervention..that of all people, i met him downstairs and because of his character, i believe God knows that he will come and look for me, wanting to encourage me.

Thinking about this, i realised one point and a simple concept.
It was only up to the point of hunger and starvation, can i know what does it mean to be filled.
Benny Ho once said, no one can ever experienced getting healed by God if we were not once broken.
Just like you will never know what is light until you have seen darkness,
you will never know what is heat and warmth until you have experienced the cold.
you will not know what is good until you have seen what is bad.
Human beings will never know that they need God until they have truely nothing in the world to depend on.
Human beings will never know that they need for forgiveness from God until they truely know that they are sinners.

There is a story that i want to share.
There was once 2 brothers fighting.
They are like children.
Then the father came along and grab their hands and ask them to apologise to each other.
They didn't want to do so, so they kept quiet and looked at each other with dagger eyes.
the father asked again.
Again, they didn't do so.
The father insisted the last time, and they mumbled the words.
"Louder" the father said.
They say it with an unwilling heart, "i am sorry!"

Just like 2 brothers who fought, they didn't want to say sorry is because deep in their heart they do not believe that they are in the wrong.
So they didn't want to apologise because they do not see the need to do so.
Its just like, why bother repenting when i am not in the wrong in the first place?
Why must i even ask for forgiveness?

Do you realise why people build relationships and get so close together?
The one factor is that in brokenness, they find that people still cared for them and love them.
Thats the X factor to the build up of friendships. To be there to lend a helping hand in times of need.

God Bless you guys!